圣诞节

今天，去了Geojo and Genevie 家里吃饭～
感谢她们做的饭菜！
谢谢，Erica送的圣诞礼物，是一个有盖子的杯子
上面写了说，没有什么事可以难倒我的！
非常感谢，我身边有那么多支持我的人，是我没看到，还一直心存怀疑
我觉得自己真的是以小人之心度君子之腹，我真的很不应该

过后，到我们家，Geojo帮我祷告了
她告诉我，我现在头顶有一团很大的乌云，这就是阻扰我的东西
然后，她说，神让她看见了很多格子里的我，有开心，不开心，很多的表情都在框框里
她说，我出不来这些框框。。。然后我的心在滴血
虽然面对朋友都是很开心，笑笑的，但是心里其实在滴着血
让我突然觉得，我好像很开心，但是心里不开心，我不想面对这些，一直在逃避着
我故意让自己装的很开心，但是，我心里却很不开心，没有人能够明白我在不开心什么，因为就连我自己都不知道自己在不开心些什么。。。。。。。

随着年龄的增长，好像渐渐明白很多事，很多现实的事情，一起觉得自己还小，可以逃避，
但是，现在逃不了了～把自己不开心的回忆锁在框框里，自己的失败，我其实知道我痛得很
但是，已经过了，心里却留下了个洞，怎么补缺补不好
她还说，神说他爱我，要我不要把自己的心锁起来，把负担交给神，因为他明白我的感受
神要我放下，放下心里的难过，我才能开心，他要我开开心心的～
他叫我，不要用眼睛看，要用我的心去看。。。

突然间意识到，是我自己把自己锁上了！
身边有好多好多关系我的人，替我加油的人，帮助我的人，还有了解我的神
我却失去了信心，不再相信自己。。。忘记了别人的支持，只因为把这些支持当成了讽刺
我真的很不应该！

神啊，我要学会如何交托，把我的心卸下来
我要怎么把我的负担交给你，让你陪我一起承担
主啊～ 我需要你！

我怎么了？

我不知道我怎么了～
休息了好久，等着伤口痊愈
才发现，我不敢再轻易尝试了

我真的害怕受伤，
但是，我更害怕伤害了你
我不想做可怜虫，要你迁就我
我也不想做坏人，头也不回的一走了之
我真的不知道，我该怎么做

也许，是我自私
期待着有更好的出现
我不知道你会不会是我的选择
我不敢轻易答应
但是，我却不想你走开

我到底该怎么做
我真的不懂～
唉。。。。。。。。。。。。

事过境迁～

昨天有位兄弟回国了
我们有了一些的分享，
让我有了些感触
在这里的日子，我记得很清楚，不知道为什么我却记得
让我想起中学的日子，我还真的记不起来
也许，过得太开心，太快乐了～

我所怀念的是这里的一切
什么地方，什么人，发生了什么事
这是让人想念的
我真的很想念以前的日子
但是，明明知道时间不能回到过去
我想说，我真的很想念以前的日子，但是
我知道那些都会不到的过去

之前还很执着，但现在已经放下了
终于了解到，只能回味的过去，很多遗憾不能够弥补
没想到，快乐所带来的悲伤，更加心痛
虽然风景依然在，却人事已非
只变成在脑海中浮现的非白画面和笑声

谢谢你们经过我的生命，
让它添上了彩色，笑声

也谢谢你们
让我知道没有了你们，我还是可以活得很好

曲终，人亦散
事过境迁
面目全非
回忆，依然。徘徊

珊
随笔

Blanked...

I am who i am......
this sentence seems familiar to everyone!
Everyone just want to be themselves, no one else would like to
change to others because of something can i say this is an attitude?
Well, we can say whatever we like when we are free or in young age?
Have u ever think about, when you are in the real society
and the pressure upon you, which always watching ur attitudes,
you are force to change or with a mask on yourself


Sometimes, we may sick with this world, but we cannot leave aside
I was so excited alone, as i planned to give a birthday surprised for S
but then, it seems end up with not a little bit of surprising ???
Although we make quite lots of fun, but i feel so bad that, seems my appeared
make her not into moods.
-I mean like, she feel annoying? when i am around?
-She blamed me i am dirty when i sit on her bed before i take my shower?
-She kinda stress on her work, as she need to keep me accompany then she cannot do her work?
-She cannot skype with her bf or talk to him properly when i am there?
-She feel annoying when i talking to her?

I feel so upset when i am back from her place,
i was thinking, am i shouldn't appear at that time or i should just keep myself alone
at home during that time. Sigh~~~
I seriously don't feel good!
We are so near, yet you are so far away from me! I sincerely can feel that.
I feel like left over, i hate that kind of feelings~
I wonder, whats had happened and make all this?
I have no idea, what should i do to take you back with me
I feel kinda lost without you!
I am upset when u refused to listen to me or even talk to me
When i cannot talk to mum, dad, A and B, u r the only one who cares me alots,
listen to me and debating for me!


Sigh........ another struggling
i hope God could lead me through this all
Cause i am really lost in no where...........


sorry foe being so lost
sorry for being so immature
sorry for being so weak
sorry for being so dependence
sorry for being so demanding

i dont know where to go.......

Slacking...

Well, as my title had show everything!
This ain't a good thing for me!!!
BAd......i am totally on holidays mood, although i got lots of thing
need to do~

However, have talk to S during afternoon,
she told me third year is much more easier than second year,
i was like itis? I don't think so
It's the same if you don't put any effort on it
however, there might be some easier way as in
more understanding? more easier to catch up? have a clue on what to do
and what's going on?
I am not sure, but i think it's kinda cool for me

I went shopping again and again......
i can't help myself, seriously need help!
and i keep on procrastinated !!! i know i can't!!!
i should really catch up when i back, no more slacking
do more research, more understanding and read more journals articles

Today went for my visa appointment, the advisor help me a lots
big thanks for her, she have been so kind to me~ i love her!
but i am really tired, i dont know why `a bad sigh`

Well, life move on! i am still preparing!
i will faced all the challenge when i am ready! keep going
Gambateh ~~~

Clubbings~

Yesterday have a great dinner @ G place, B is our chef~
between, i love the hai nan chicken so much~ i just love the
steamed chicken in pink color, hahaha~
Then, we have big root soup, its yummy yummy

After that, Tammy came for the soup as well!
Then she said, she going to Madam Koo and ask us to join also
Actually, i am not really in mood to join them, but i feel like
having my night life back as well, so i agree to go with them
Well, have a glass of Jagerbomb, i am still very awaken!
i don't dance much, cause it's freaking hot inside and lots of people
Crowded, people was pushing you and her.........creepy!!!

I think i am not good in social, cause i don't always smile
i usually turn my face into black as i don't want stranger who come close to me
but, i think this is not good, even when people are trying to show they
are friendly to you, but u r in that face, then nobody dare to go near to u
But then, it was like a mask already which very hard to take it down
Sigh, a bad habit of mine!

Hmmm, knew a sibu girl last night from there, was surprised actually
Cause one of my fren told me all of her housemates are sibu gang,
but i know none of them! lolsss
Actually, i need to tidy up my heart to do some work of mine
especially, i need to write my proposal and need to hand in next week
but i don't even start my journal articles yet!!!
Time to quite down myself and start reading lor..........

Have a nice days, time to study study study T.T

十月之散文

原以为什么都不想懂得我
却什么都懂了
不停的欺骗自己，换来的却是措不及手的成长
当我们认识的那一天起，原来只是个错误
我哭泣，
我自责，
我抱怨，
我颓废，
最终，还是逃不了回忆的折磨

虽说，人总是常常忘记的动物
但是，记忆却永远都抹不去，只不过是被淡忘了
伤口虽然痊愈了，但疤痕始终还在～

想说，对不起，我想原谅你，但我做不到
你，让我很失望，让我不知道还应该要怎么去面对你
也许，你真的不在乎，那么我，又何尝不是呢？
因为，我没那么有力的心脏，我不能抵抗你所给我的无所谓
我真的已经不在乎了
因为，真的痛了。。。。。

希望有一天，我可以遇到一个让我从新找回那个以前的我～

I pray for u! I DO =)




Haven't been in church
since I dont remember when
Things were going great
Til they fell apart again
So I listened to the preacher
As he told me what to do
Said:"you cant go hating others, who done wrong to you"
Sometimes we get angry
But we must not condemn
Let the good Lord do his job
And you just pray for them

I pray your brakes go out
Running down a hill
I pray and flower pot falls
From a window sill
And knocks you in the head like I'd like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray your flying high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are
Honey, I pray for you

Really glad I found my way to church
Cause I'm already feeling better and I thank God for the words
So I'm gonna take the high road
And do what the preacher told me to do
You keep messing up
And I'll keep praying for you

I pray your tire blows out at 110
I pray you pass out with your best friend
And wake up with his and her tattoos
I pray your brakes go out
Running down a hill
I pray and flower pot falls
From a window sill
And knocks you in the head like I'd like to
I pray your birthday comes and nobody calls
I pray your flying high when your engine stalls
I pray all your dreams never come true
Just know wherever you are, near or far, in your house or in your car
Wherever you are honey, I pray for you.
I pray for you~~~

唠叨

今天就想上来唠叨下～
我觉得，我真的很喜欢唠叨别人
但是，有时候我不敢，因为我觉得我没那个资格去唠叨，或者说，我没自信我这么说是对的
但是，在我的原则里，总有那么一本我所谓的原则是我不能打破的

总是有人不明白，当你越唠叨时，就代表你有多么的在乎他
如果一个人对你没有任何的影响力，说真的，你连理都懒得理他！
一个可以左右你的人，就证明了他对你有多么重要，又或者你有多么重视他
无论是你喜欢或者你不喜欢的人，所以切记。。。
不要让你不喜欢的人，左右你的心情，左右你的决定！

哈～～～～～～～今天托妹妹的富，起了大早，因为她打电话来，被吵醒了！
不敢再睡回去，怕等等上课来不及！因为我一定会睡过头，太嗜睡了
昨天去血拼了。。。。花了好多钱
我自己都不敢看了！呵呵！！！
下个礼拜是妹妹生日了，希望我快点把功课做好，然后就可以玩了咯！

嘻嘻。。。。。。。

记忆

突然有心情想上来写写～
总觉得，在外面的日子，让我成长了很多很多
学会了很多事情，学会了独立，学会了什么事都要靠自己！
人的一生都在学习。。。

前天和堂妹聊了几句，其实我的心情很郁闷，因为有好多功课的压力
我真的不能负荷我的压力，好想爆炸～
她和我说了她的决定，其实，我知道～有些事她还是不会多说，但是，她愿意说，我就愿意听
无论你在哪里，我都会支持你！如果心情不好，可以找我，我会听！
我好久好久没和你见面了～
以下是她要我写在这里的～哈哈

还记得小小年纪，我们常粘一起，到处跑
尤其是在店里，很喜欢和你在一起玩
第一次，我们玩得太疯了，你跌倒了。。。还留了好多血，在那里大哭
我看傻了！我妈赶紧抱你到诊疗所～
记得我们一起补习，你被老师打，也哭了（因为那个老师有点疯）我也被他打得好惨，你怕死了
记得，我们常常在一起做一些很笨的事，你到了古晋，我们还常通信
你常常很怕事，都是躲在我后面，要不然就静静的～
记得，我们第一次一起在我家做了一个蛋糕，结果那个蛋糕像水一样～做坏了
好多好多的事，我都快想不起来了
当你告诉我，也许十年后你才回回来～也就是说，也许十年后我们才能在见面
我都快忘了我们的回忆
我都快忘了你每次捂住嘴巴不停的笑
我都快忘了你因为笑太多，嘴角裂了，还不停的涂药
我都快忘了你总是放了屁后才说，不好意思我要放屁了～
我都快忘了你总是躲在身后的你
我都快忘了你因为HIE KEE 笑得像疯人一样
我都快忘了那个无面不欢的你
我都快忘了那个喜欢穿七分裤和拖鞋的你
我都快忘了可以和我们一起无所不谈的你
我都快忘了那个叫maggie 面的家伙～

我想你了，亲爱滴，真的好想

谢谢你，有空时陪我聊上几句，虽然我们很少聊天
但是我们都聊重点～
收到了你在远方的鼓励，你也要加油啊～
一个人在外面不容易，所以我们都要加油哟！

爱你哟～

Motivation....

Basically, today i have attend my first lecture, my seminar
They all give me really good impression and of cos motivates me a lot as well
1stly, the first lecture is Mike, he is got a mature look, not very tall, but he giving a really good lecture today! Surprisingly, he make me awake in the one hour of lecture in the lecture hall....
I would just say Wuhoooooo
He was funny, and lots of facial expression, giving example of life which make us
pay attention on him, he is genius huh!!!

Alright, come to the next, which is another marketing tutor,
he was quite young i guess? his way is like utilise some fouls languages as in, not a good one as i though? haha
Well, he was like using the realilife as example as well to drag into his presentation! This is a good way to explain to the students ya? Especially the Interntional students, but he speak a bit fast, luckily i still manage to catch up! Phew......

then, i have done a creepy thing today, i was waiting for my seminar and i tot it was in room 418, then i go into the room and sit down, the tutor seperate us in 3 groups, i never realised i was in the wrong room until i got the registeer list from the tutor! I can't found my name, then i look at the Module was MN0388, i was stunned, i was like WTF, i am in the wrong classroom, then i ask the students in my group, is this the module of MN0388? They aisd YES,

I was like CRAP, i said, OOps, i think i was in the wrong class...then i double check on my timetable, i need to be in class 218 the class 418 which is tomorrow noon....i tidy up my things and rushing out from the classroom, and of cos i do apology to the tutor before i ran! hahaha...Always be a polite one hah!!! and of cos i was late for my seminar class which i need to be in 10 mins ago!

I knock on the door, and apology for being late, i said i was in the wrong class just now, and my tutor said doesnt matter, just come in! AAAAAwww....He is so lovely didn't HE? Then, i hand me a copy of module handbook, I was like wow..... i havent been meeting any tutor who printed the handbook and clipped it for us! i feel really warm and sweet inside my heart! =P

Anyways, he really give me a fabulous impression after tat all...
Moreover, he was my tutor in my 2nd year module as well, during my presentation of my marketing module, he was my tutor...aaaaaa,....so lovely!!!
Love him so much~ lolsss

Well, going to my next lecture now =P

Motivation motivation!!! keep it going
See yah !!!

挣扎

回到英国了，感谢主，一切顺利
顺利的进入了第3年～
这条路，我真的走得很辛苦
因为太多的失败，我走过了
经历了失败，我才尝到了成功的滋味
我只能说，这一路走来，真的不容易
也许，别人觉得在外面那么好命，很爽
但是，他们都不知道你的苦
有苦，也只能自己吞

现在，我很想吃东西，因为天气冷，再加上压力
回到这里时，我的胃口变得好大～感觉，怎么都吃不饱
郁闷～
真的很郁闷，每当我有论文要写的时候，我真的苦恼，很郁闷
我很多事情好做，但是，我就是不知道要从哪里开始
每次我都是这样！
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
我也不知我自己在说啥了！
唉～

希望我可overcome all this!!!
惨咯，华语退步了～

友情这种东西

随着时间的流逝，年龄的增长
友情对我而言变得好廉价
以前，友情总是我的第一，甚至胜过家人
但是，我现在真的看得透了
有时候，觉得友情和爱情没什么两样
我不懂得你的利用，你的目的
我只有用我的真心，不断地向你付出
但是，你显然不以为意，觉得我所做的是理所当然
对不起，我现在才发现，原来我什么都不是

悲哀~
常常，我的真心都被人利用
我只有不断地学习着保护自己
真的只有保护自己
因为我学着不再对人付出真心
学着不再把真心交给别人~

泪流够了
是时候懂得为别人擦掉眼泪
只能不断的让自己变强

在人生的道路上，我们都在学习
所以~加油吧。。。。。。。。。。。。

My gosh, it's nearly August~

I am currently staying @ kuching,
As i wanna finish my assignment in Kuching, as i can get more resource at the Uni here
but unfortunately i failed T.T
Cause i have spending too much time on playing around, as there are too much thing
attract me playing around!
While i m staying in BAU, and finally i had finish one of my assignment
BIG CLAPSSS~~~

Yesterday, before i slept, i was praying to God that, i hope
my families members can follow the footstep of yours!
Yet God really have his own arrangement!
He give me the chance to let me share my experience with my cousin
i feel really great with that!
When i started talking about GOD, it's just never ends
and just so amazing of him!!!

I am really gald that, i know HIM! and i called him as my only GOD
He is so awesome that i couldn't explain with my tongue!
I know he will lead me........
Even when i fall, he encourage me to stand, he talk to me
understand my heart that nobody can! He is just so lovely and amazing
i really love him so much! there have no one who can compare u~

Lord, i have lots failure in my life
but u always the one who take me over all this difficulties
also the supporting of my families
now, i only wish that, i could have time to talk with my mum
to build better relationship with her!
then i will pass my assignment and go into my final years then graduated
successfully !!! If everyone can do it, wHY i cant?
i must do it!

i dont wanna make my life regret!
Thank u LORD~

I feel very sien today~

No idea what is the matter with me, i don't feel excited at all
may be i was staying alone at home for quite a long time, i refused to spend more
money for shopping, eating outside and blabla~~~

However, i ain't feel any good after doing all this, i was thinking to shopping again!
Phewww...........
I feel furious with one of my friend, as we plan to give her a surprised birthday on the coming Saturday, but she suddenly said she wont be going to Sunderland, because of her EX bf don't allowed her to go out! i was like What the fuck with u!!!
Both of you are not related anymore, he is just a past tense !!! AN EX!!! what is the matter with you???

I feel really bad, once u make this decision, u hurt everyone around u! Me, Micheal, Geojo, ur family? What are u supposed us to do? u said u cant let go, so u wanna listen to him, what about others who love u and care about u? Don't you think you are selfish enough to do all this? I am sorry, i really can't accept nor agree what are you doing right now! I feel so speechless of you!

Everyone got their different mind and thinking, i don't want your apology! If you happy i support, but u ain't happy at all! Is this the life you want? staying alone! Tidy up the mess which he purposely to do it! what is the matter with him? What the fuck is him? He think he owned this house? i paid for it as well! i got the right to do so whatever i want to! why do i need to be quite and like a nobody when i am in the house! What is the problem with you????

Yet, i really can't stand anymore! Micheal was keep calling and talking about all this! He know everything yet he never want to voice up, as he got the patient and love! but doesn't mean everyone got the same patient towards you! Sigh

Just get lost~ i never ever want to care anymore, i dont wanna be busy body to care so much! Sigh! HATE myself......................

When i need someone to talk, everyone was dead! i feel so pissed off
Where is everyone when i need to talk?

心

昨天我真的很郁闷
今天和阿燕在skype里聊天～好喜欢和她聊天，喜欢她笑着！
我不介意在你面前办小丑，因为我喜欢看到你笑，不喜欢你冷酷的看着我
所以，我总喜欢逗你笑

晚上，和erica and geojo 出去吃，然后再Quay side走走
但是，天太冷了，所以我们喝了杯红酒
昨天晚上M和我说了些，我不该听到的东西～虽然我心里有数，但是，我还是选择沉默
毕竟，这是很私人的事，有时候，我们没有他想象的那么好
我不知道在她心里，我有着什么样的位置
但是，我相信，是由某个位置，只是不知道是什么样的位置

我们都一样会为了另一半付出所以，我们的看法也相近
所以我害怕再一次受伤，我真的要很认真，很认真想清楚才接受
所以，如果只是想和我玩玩的，拜托离我远一点

两个人在一起，就是要接受对方的缺点
懂得体谅～虽然女生喜欢无理取闹，但是男生应该要懂得体贴

很多时候，我朋友说我，我都是想象出来的～
其实，当我遇到了，我就不怕了
我承认，我不是个好女生，所以，不要靠近我
我的心很冷，甚至我都觉得自己冷血！我脾气暴躁，喜欢乱发脾气
我很自私，什么都想到自己
我需要一个可以很包容我的男朋友

我容易忽冷忽热
就因为我太自私！

其实，当你说，我不在是你的最爱时，我有点失落
我害怕你在等我，因为你知道我们是不可能的
但是，我又害怕失去你，会没有人疼我
对不起，也谢谢你～
虽然爱你，但是。。。。。。。。
这是个没有结局的爱

对于你，我不想再把你当好朋友
也许就像你说的，我们是两个世界的人
说来说去，是你自私，不愿意为了我而改变，
因为你根本就不爱我！
我只想活得更好！我要让你知道，失去我，是你的损失

因为痛过，才知道爱

我今天心情很不好！

今天心情超级差～
因为，昨天朋友叫我去另一个朋友家吃饭，结果我就去了
因为心想，呆在家里也没事做
结果，到凌晨3点多才回家！一直和他们聊天，其实我很爱睡了
但是，看到我朋友躺在那男人大腿上睡觉！他们到底什么关系啊？
算了！结果我一直等到3点她才甘愿起身，我爱睡死了。。。。。。
其实，认识我的人知道，通常我都不出声的，除非我真的忍无可忍，我才会出声！
结果，就这样拖着，拖着，拖着～

回到家后，看到煤气炉上都是碎碎的拉面，一定又是家里那个男的弄的咯
结果，我朋友就说，你不要去收，不管他，我明天会收
我心想，他是神经有问题哦，每次都搞这些幼稚的事，
然后我朋友就向我拿7镑，说还刚刚吃的食物，哇老！！！我真的炸到
我本来不想去的，因为想这个月花太多了，要呆在家里，然后他说一人煮一样的嘛，为什么我还要还钱？
唉。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。马的！

今天早上起来，我更郁闷！！！马的，那个男的竟然把我的衣服丢在袋子里！
因为我的衣服放在洗衣机里洗，我还没拿去晒的！！！结果他既然把我衣服放在袋子里
我气爆了！！！平常，他衣服放几天，我都没把他拿出来！！！
我都问过他们，他们才把衣服拿出来，而且再我赶着洗我的衣服的时候，要不然我也会等他们拿出来后
我才拿去洗！！！结果叻。。。。。。。。。。。。。啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
然后，今天去游泳，游到很不开心，我朋友一直在那里抱怨说很多巴基斯坦人！！！他们很肮脏
哇老，你来游泳哦，你还想怎样？又不是你一个人的！！！算了啦，我忍！！！

结果，我就郁闷了一整天，一直到现在！
然后我刚刚在看Facebook,看到那个 MADAM TAN 尽然把我delete掉！ FUCK lor
那个ah mu是在我店里做工的，然后她既然和我妈妈吵架
马的，还敢把我删除！！！我都没删除她！！！都50多岁的人了！还那么幼稚
是怎样？马的一整天都遇到这些幼稚的人！！！
我快风了！很想快点回家～～～～～～～～～～～～～～
不想看到这些人！！！死远一点啦～～～～～～～～～～～

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我心情超级郁闷的说～～～～～～～～～～～～
真的好久没有这种感觉了！！！郁闷啦
我讨厌男生哭啦，好像很懦弱！！！
马的，马的，马的，马的，马的

我很闲！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

水瓶座～

水瓶的独特宣言　　 　水瓶座：1月21日～2月19日

从来不曾觉得水瓶奇怪。可这些却又确确实实从别人的嘴里说了出来。
瓶子是属于那种自已没事儿找事儿型的，若觉得十里以内没有什人让自己牵挂就 不好玩了。所以在没有真正喜欢一个人之前，常常会到处寻找合适的目标，并且这时 的目标还不止一个。被瓶子猎上的主儿，如果在别人眼里没有什么闪光点，那么他在 瓶子眼里可真有特别的地方啊。比如他有一天只是对着大树说了一句：“你看你长得怎 么那么TMD绿啊”，可能就让瓶子产生了兴趣。并且当瓶子飞着吐沫两眼发光地讲此人 的“事迹”给你听时，你会说：“你丫地有病么......” 。

瓶子喜欢那种暧昧的感觉。瓶子们有强烈的直觉，他们本能的就知道自己的身 影会让谁的心不平静，可他们不说，但也不是假装不知道，他们只是在保持着一种极 为暧昧关系。不近不远，就像他们眼中可能的爱情若即若离。瓶子们喜欢百花丛中 过，片叶稍沾身的的感觉。并且这时他们有点分不清倒底喜不喜欢你。但是当你终于 忍不住将你心中的爱恋表达出来后，会有两种结果。如果他不喜欢你，他不太会直接 拒绝你，也不会委婉暗示你，他只会说一些稀奇古怪连自己也不懂却觉得很有理的话，整得大家都莫名其妙，不知发生了什么。然后你就不自然起来，可瓶子只是觉得 你有毛病了，不能再陪你玩了，然后就不再和你讲话了，不管你们在此之前关系多 好，只要他不喜欢你，就不会再和你保持以前的关系也不会再和你说话。所以没有把 握时千万不要向一个水瓶表白，否则你和他连普通朋友都不是。如果他也喜欢你，他 也不会直接地说，但是可以肯定的是他绝对不会拒绝你，绝对不会不理你。怎样判断 瓶子爱不爱你？在你表白之后如果他还会和你说话。也许平时他对你也许淡淡的，但 偶尔他会很深情地和你说点什么。你不要为这是他随口说说，这是真情流露。同样他也会和你说一些稀奇古怪的话，你会觉得他若即若离。这为什么呢？因为他心理很矛盾。他怕你们一旦越过的朋友的关系还会像以前一样地相互坦白么。在水瓶看 来，不管怎么的关系，坦白很重要，但是更重要的是你不要让他坦白。一旦让他坦 白，就好比在日光灯下赤裸裸，瓶子会很没有安全感，你们这段关系也可能就到尽头了。

只要一个瓶子在精神上能对你忠贞，你就赢了他的一生，他想跑都跑不掉了。所以你要是不想认真地开始一段感情就不要试图让瓶子爱上你，因为也许他们的爱就这样地延了一生一世，如果你不能给瓶子一个未来的保证，他们会很伤心的。对于水瓶来说，一段短途的两情相悦结束比一段长途的暗恋无果带来的伤害及毁灭更大些。

如果水瓶决定和你在一起了，那就说明你是他这一生都认定的人了。你会很少听到他说我喜欢你我爱你这样的话。至多他在热恋的时候会说句我想你了。他会在你很不在意的时候说一句我爱你，在你诧异的同时，不会再听到第二遍了，并且瓶子脸上的表情不像是在表白。瓶子会问你许多无厘头让你莫名其妙的问题来让你回答。你也许会觉得他无理取闹，可是我敬告你最好认真地回答，因为这些东西对他们来说很重要。如果你答不了，他们会很失望，自然地情绪会低落，会对你产生一些逆反心理---可你不会知道。瓶子和你在一起会很在意一些小事，你不经意间传过去的一个温柔眼神比送他玫瑰花说口干舌燥的表白要有用的多。他不开心时你说过的那些话他们一 定不会忘。还有，你做不到的事一定不要对瓶子许诺。也许他一时半会儿想不起来，但如果他想起来了你却忘了他会发狠地“埋汰”你。瓶子会主动放掉自己所爱的人!如果你犯了他们不能原谅的错---虽然在任何人眼里这也许不算是错，可瓶子只在乎一些别人眼里所谓的小事---这也许就是怪？你一定不要让瓶子失望，他真的会离开你，原因只有一个，就是他爱你。正是因为爱你，才对你一个人要求严格，其它的人，我不在乎。瓶子不喜欢别人考验他。如果水瓶已经和你在一起，你就不要再忽冷忽热。假如你曾经一天和他说一遍我喜欢你可你突然又改成两天说一遍了他就会在意—其实原本你不用说他都不会在意。

很多时候瓶子将自己表现得与他人无关。他们是需要自由。于是用冷漠来包装，用不羁来掩饰。所以一生也就错过了很多曾经爱过的人，因为那些人根本不知道瓶子的爱，或者，虽然爱着瓶子却仍旧不敢爱。
这是瓶子的悲哀，也是瓶子的骄傲，瓶子的幸福！

Moving forward~

Life still move on.....I nearly forgot how old am i now
I suppose to be 23 or 24 this year?
Well,i don't really remember as i purposely forget it~
I slept at 9 something last night but i was awake at 1am
Couldn't fall asleep after that as my brain was keep rolling upside down

I wanna Thanks Elin which really understanding
when i told her something, she accepted and understanding
I feel bad and disappointed on someone, i started worried about our future
I know everyone got their own personality doesnt mean that they are bad originally
or they use to be bad. People just can't get along sometime with their different personality, but i still accept them as my friend.

I don't like some attitude of my friend but doesnt mean i hate them or they are bad. Sometime i just use to be nag around with others of my friends. I don't like people enlarge their bad attitude and start spreading around with others. Sigh!!! i feel so bad of her and so sorry of her.............. She really make me afraid to go nearer to her. I just don't like when i told her something, and she told others what i have told her, and others start talking about her but they dont even know her!

I was so surprised and Like WHAT the FUCK, u guys are not suppose to talk about her, and u guys have no rights to judge on her!!! FAK it

just fuck up, i hate this!!! SIGH
alright, stop thinking about it~ Chiao

猜不透

你讓我傷透了。。。
讓我知道愛情帶來的痛，
我猜不透，
猜不透你要的是什麼
猜不透你想的是什麼
猜不透我該怎麼做
你還可以帶著笑臉離開
我原以為，我的付出，你會看得見
我原以為，我的忍讓，會讓你懂得體諒
我原以為，我可以感動你，讓你只為了為我停留，為了我靠岸
但是，我錯了

你根本就沒打算要停
還拼了命的找藉口，說要離開
弄得我，傷痕累累。
今年已經過了4年了，我的心依然痛着
但是我知道，只有懂得珍惜我的，會為我停留

我死命的要你來到我身邊
但是，就算你到了我身邊，又如何？
我也綁不住你。
你還是一樣讓我痛，讓我一個人承受
也許對你來說，你沒關係
但是對我，卻是那麼的殘忍

對不起，你要的愛，我給不起
請不要再繼續折磨我
我甚至我不想再看到你，再有任何你的消息，你的存在
因為，我已經不想知道

為何你的出現，卻讓我心亂如麻
讓我亂了我的腳步
我到底該如何，才能放開這一切
回到原來冷淡無比的我
我只想冷靜的面對這些
請不要再來打擾我的生活～

Holidays~

Sorry for didn't update my blog for such a long period~
I was busying with social-ing with bunch of mates
see, i have told u, if social-ing, something will be giving up ( i mean internet) cause you have not enough time for all this!!!

Well, i was awake this early huh...
cause i had a nightmare last night plus i sleep early as well~
Horrible, i was dreaming about my assignment, there was two which i had finish but coming again another two, which i have nearly finish but i am still working out with it. Then a bees was flying here and there inside my room, and stop on my head! WHAT the FCK is that??? when i woke up i, i was like jumping to the corner and scarbble my hair all around! faking stupid, and ends-up nothing, it was just my dream = ="

Yesterday, me,erica,geogina and elin went to sunderland, we plan to stay at Brian place, but ends up Geogina get drunk! she is dam funny man~ When she drunk, she was looking at me and said, Jasmine can you please don't run here and there. As i was stunned and siting straight in front of her, then we all start laughing so loud!!!
After that, she was rushing into toilet and vomit. I feel okay during that time, but then when i run up to the third floor for a loo, my heart was bumping very fast. Due to the blood cycle getting faster, i was dizzy as well. I start feeling right round right round and pour out inside the toilet.

When i get back inside the room, i was alright, but i was being infected by Geogina, cause she was crying inside the room and i started crying as well T.T what a beep night. Then i fall sleep after that. After two hour slept, we all awake, they said, ppl use to wake up early after they hand over LoLsss..................
Well, the alcohol we drunk actually nice looo!!! i will try to bring one back when i found it ^^

Lastly, i was siting here feeling sleepy lo.... but my room was in a mess
feel like going back to sleep ~ Day still long 3 more weeks and i am on my way back home~ hehe.........

All in all, i have no idea what i am trying to say~
hahaha..............mad = =" to be continue soon i guess?

头痛哦～

已经5月了哦～时间过得好快
我也好久没上来了，因为最近真的很忙，忙着写论文
这期间，学生都很忙的咯～
包括我。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

最近和Erica , my housemate 关系变得比较好
因为从她表妹来了之后，我们也常跑来跑去
所以话也变得多了！
认识了他们的表哥，和他表哥的朋友
他表哥真的很帅一下的咯～～～哈哈
不好意思，让我发一下花痴啦
还有他表哥的朋友也是很帅哦。。。。哈哈
不过，你们知道的啦，我对帅哥不感冒，只喜欢看一看

现在心情有点复杂，因为
他们都很emo...让我也觉得很emo下的
因为Geojo刚刚失恋，然后Erica我也不知道他怎么了
感觉怪怪的！今晚她答应和我一起去图书馆做功课
希望我们可以静静的做咯
唉～～～～～～

压力真的好大
上帝要我刚强，努力
我一定会的！
我也给我自己set了个目标！
就是，我要把我的assignment全部做好，交上去
剩下的就听主动安排了！
另外，我也要进地3年！
这是我的目标

今天买了个新包包
我很喜欢的说～～～～
超美的咯！是river island的
最近超喜欢这里的牌子的。。。hollister 等，都好美哦
嘻嘻

好了不说了
要休息下，今晚通宵～

Hurricane in Newcastle ???

Sorry for didn't updating my blog for such a thousand years, because i was really busy
with my current life, and most of my time was spending in the library!
So i don't have any further time to blog!

However, i will try my best to make it!
There are too much thing to say, 1stly.... i will tell u what i am doing currently
i just hand in a report today but when i reach Uni, i just found that i forgot to bring
my transparent pocket! Dam......i was trying to ask the office for one or i can pay for it, but they say no! u should bring one for it = ="""" Then i walk back to home and bring one again, while the crazy wind nearly blow me away, don't LAUGH!!! u can imaging how heavy am i, but still i cant stand stable when the winds blow~~~
I think it's quite dangerous for walking in this weather, as anything can be blow down and knock on u! so, i hope everyone can stay inside the house for safety! lols

Well, then about my studies.... i had just finish my second exam and one presentation, as i had mention i had hand in a report today. Then gonna start my second presentation which need to present on Tuesday! i hope its flow smoothly if they doing like what we do during our rehesal!!! Actually i am quite mad with my group members, cause they are all depends on me!!! i was like, i am not a group leader or what, why u guys always like this arrrrrr
When we have a meeting, they dont even do any print out for the requirement or the questions, i was like, what the hell are u coming to UNI? this is ur responsibility to do ur work, Even a print out of paper, u cant manage to do it? Am i expect u to read the question and tell me what are the question want us to DO? NO!!!
Everytime, i am the one who read it, who telling u, who asking u to do, to work
to seperate the works!!!

Then i chatting with one of my group member which is a vietnamese, he told me that,
because u can speak both languages, mandrin and english, so every need u to translate! and u r like the group leader now! i was LIKE....what are am i suppose to say? LoL...................Deng~ i am still the one who need to take this responsibility on me! thats why i am busy like hell, cause i need to understand everything and to tell them what to do and need to arrange everything to ask them to work, need to send thousand of text to inform them what to do!

I feel so frustrated when i am doing all this yet i still fail my assignment!
Dam it..........I am feel so bad sometime when i am alone! but i am really confidence, i mean like, i have really try my best to get everything done! Really...... i will work harder on my next coming assignments and so on.....

Oops, too long for this, cause i want to say this for so long.........well, come to the next matter of mine, when i wanna book a ticket to go home, daddy suddenly ask me to just book a one way ticket. He ask me to stay in malaysia if i can't progress my 3rd year and ask me to repeat my course in KL, he gonna find something to let me do in KL as well. For real, i feel really please for what he is doing!Because when he show me a disappointed face, this is worst ever i feel, i wish he could just scold me and blame me rather than showing me that way, but i feel so please because he didn't do so, yet he finally can understand what i am thinking about after i sending them an email, i feel its so worth to do that! to let them understand my feeling and situation. Yet daddy have think about my future and had a plan for me. Although i feel that my life was being planning for him but i feel blessed with that! i love u so much dad and mum!

Okay, come to the 4th problems, i am gonna attend a ball room which my friend ask me to go together, actually i dont feel like going because of the amount of the ticket! It's cost me 35 pounds, yet i still need a dress and a heel cause i have none of them! Also time! cause need time for shopping and attend the ball, and my presentation and report are so near, but still i have agree because my friend say she is so pity to going alone, she want us to have fun together! i was like...oh~ okay larrrr!!! may be just once a time with u gals~ Then we shop for so long yesterday in metro center, i was really tired T.T

well, heres the end, cause i am going to start my presentation now = ="
busy life.......can't wait for the vacation to Sheffield
i gonna make it a perfect time in there~ lols

意思意思～

想不到很好的題目，這個好不？
最近忙着考試，考好了，每個人都問著同樣的問題，額～考得怎麼樣？
我其實不知道該怎麼回答，因為題目，字，都有讀到，又看到，都認識，
但是，說真的，我不會回答，我不能確定我的答案是對的。。。。所以，我有點鬱悶
唉～～～～一半我也在煩惱要不要搬家！過後，還是算了～
也許可以把省下來的錢，花在別的地方！呵呵。。。。

不知道為什麼，今天頭好痛！
也許，下午的時候，肚子很餓，然後吃了一碗很辣的拉麵，胃有點不適應，開始痛啊痛啊
然後就一直拉肚子了～～～～～～～～～唉
好可憐啊。。。。怎麼會這樣呢？拉了肚子後，頭就好痛好痛～
接下來還有presentation 和 assignment，我只希望我不要再寫錯就好了
因為，我有一定的把握，如果我沒有寫錯的話！加油吧。。。。

最近常常和Diana在一起，還有，我有事沒事也會找Elin
我喜歡和他們在一起～因為有很多話聊啊
我也喜歡和別人聊天啊。。。。。。。。她們讓我感覺好很多
至少我想聊天時，有人可以和我聊天！
最近看到Sharon的照片，害我一直流口水啊～好想吃哦
希望Easter 快點來哦～一起去吃喝玩樂～ 期待

不知要說什麼了。。。。希望可以得到爸媽的諒解 ==“

痊癒中

在別人眼中
也許你很光鮮亮麗，很堅強，很舒服，很聰明
但是，背後呢？你看得見的又有哪些？
我一直說服自己說，我要堅強
其實，自己心裡還有很多關卡，都還沒過
有些雖然過了，但是很容易就又被侵略了

這樣不斷的說服，不斷的侵略
很快的，已經沒有什麼可以說服的理由
人總是懦弱的
很快的，精力都被用光了
找不到任何的動力再去說服自己
好想就這樣放手
但是，這就是人生
感嘆，人生要學的東西到底有多少？
一輩子都學不完的東西

去追求嗎？有那個毅力嗎？
我承認！我沒有
難道要繼續這樣荒廢嗎？我問我自己
我不想，真的不想
但是，往往起身後，又重複著同樣的事情
再繼續的問，繼續的不想，繼續的起身，繼續著同樣的事
到底，到底，到底
要這樣到什麼時候？
我要挑戰我的極限！

我豁出去了！！！

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今天的生活

11點多起身了～

答應了室友今天出去買東西，所以準備好後就出門去了

到了麥當勞，好多人呀，所以去了burger king, 好久沒吃快餐了

點了一個套餐，結果吃著薯條，喝著可樂 聊著天，就這樣，我抱了

吃不下了。。。。可樂沒喝完，薯條也沒吃完，不像我！

朋友說，剛起身所以沒什麼胃口，我說哦～打包著我的漢堡就走了！

買了茄子，今晚要煮chicken curry 去 bible study

答應了安娜去他那裡煮，所以我很趕

到家後，跑去洗了澡就快快提好東西出門了

哇。。。累斃了，腳已經很酸了咯

但是還得繼續走～

煮好了後，我們就先拿了一點來吃了

我沒煮太辣，因為我不吃辣啊，但是安娜太厲害了

她吃得狠辣 = =“ 我不想菊花朵朵開

真好吃的說，我很樂在其中，因為煮東西本來就是我的強項

吃不停啊，其實是不想停下，太好吃了

哈哈哈。。。這就是為什麼Sharon 和我在一起都會變肥

應該很幸福才會變肥厚

有好吃的！

很期待我們去旅行的日期

所以，我要努力做功課

這樣就可以無憂無慮的旅行啦～

其實，我在考慮要不要回去，好煩啊

拜託你諒解我，但是，我又好想回家

唉。。。鬱悶！

我到底該怎麼做呀？

感謝主，一直陪著我

和我同在

唯有主是可以信靠的～

這幾天

1 March 2011 HuiMing and Leo Lee 的兒子出生了～

5 March 2011 Lindy and Larry 結婚了～

好像 3 月好多喜事呀！

本來我沒打算去的，但是shirly就叫我去去去，所以我去了

呵呵。。。蠻開心的說，但是，我睡著了，因為太久了

不過，我倒是吃得很開心！哈哈哈

最近，心情也麻麻地，沒什麼特別的感覺

很想開始專心讀書了，但是，總是有很多借口

懶得，懶得，懶得

我不可以再這樣下去了，身邊很多人鼓勵著我，答應著幫我禱告

我很感謝。。。。

時間真的過得很快，我要好好充分的利用這些時間～

希望大家可以加油加油！

每當，我想和你多聊天的時候，我不知道該說些什麼

你感覺很急促，我不知道你在忙什麼，你總是說，還有什麼要說的嗎？

這句話，總是把我問得啞口無聲，說實話，我不知道該怎麼回答你

我只能說，嗯～沒有。。。。。就這樣，我們掛斷了！

有時候，我打給你時，你沒空，你打給我時候，我又要去上課了等～

太多的不巧合，我們好像生疏了！

我們不再鏈接上次的話或者故事，因為我們彼此錯過了太多

也許，等到我們見面時，才能把事情說完

我知道，有些事，我是不認同的，所以你也因此有所保留

但是，無論如何，我還是會聽你說，然後給你意見，如果你願意聽

其實，我想告訴你的不止這些，只是不知從哪裡開始

感覺，我和媽咪也是這樣，互相尷尬着～

所以，我決定了，等我回去，我一定找機會好好和她聊聊

加油吧。。。大家都在前進著，我也不能停下來！

加油

現在的我，回來了

謝謝關心我，擔心我的人～

我會好好過的。。。。。

最近不知怎麼的，7點多就愛睡了，我也不逼我自己忍住，因為就算忍住了

也不能專心做好我的事，倒不如先去睡覺，等睡飽了再來加油！

目前的情況是這樣咯

拜一上了一整天的課，有點累了

我知道，我現在的情況不是最糟糕的

也許就像老大說的，只要我信！神會給我機會從新再來的

所以，我會加油！加油！

今天和maggie聊了一下，才發現，原來她也和我有同樣的感受

是我一直以來不知道的，但是我現在明白了

我希望她也可以堅強起來～

也許，這是我們必經的路程

也感覺到，她長大了，很是欣慰～

哈哈

最後，也不忘了我們的約定

說著，我們會在見面，等大家都畢業了的相聚

想著都覺得好幸福

所以，我相信大家都在努力著

我也不會放棄，就算是10%我也不會放棄的

我會加油！！！

加油！

懦弱的我

我承认我是个很懦弱的人！

所以，我一直希望有个很强悍的另一半可以鼓励我，保护我～

但是，他总是还没出现，我逼不得已

要学着坚强！

一路上的跌跌撞撞

我真的受伤了。。。。

身上的伤口还未愈合，新的伤口却不断的出现

我告诉我自己，要忍耐，为自己涂着药，忍着痛

不愿让别人看见我的懦弱

因为，我要坚强的自己，开心的自己

不想让别人为我忧虑，为我担心

我可以好好的～

我害怕的不是我的失败

而是父母的期望

我不害怕自己跌多少次，我都会站起来

而害怕的是父母不在给我机会

我不害怕自己一个人去承受这些压力

而害怕的是父母担心和忧虑着

我不害怕自己留多少眼泪，都可以擦干

而害怕的是父母的眼泪

我会再站起来的

因为我不会被打败

因为，神应许的事才会发生

是要我学习，让我得益的

所以，就让我再懦弱一次吧～

updated ^^

so long didn't update my blog due to the mess of my life,

yeah~~~ actually i was very busy with my life

But still most of the time are spending on PPS

you can just imaging how time flies when u spending on PPS

and when u can't stop urself from chasing the episodes one by one

Oh my God.......................

Seriously,

i am just finish my MCQ exam yesterday, when people asked: How was it?

I have no idea how to answer it, `Emmm....ok bah? i dont know`

Well, actually i just knew that i can get 10 marks which i am very sure because i know the answers

while others, i am just not sure, so i feel a bit depress at the moment,

but when i told S about that, i think i can get 10 marks...Surprisingly, she say Oh...not bad lor

at least got 10 better than nothing, wow, i think that she is very humanity today, since i knew

her for so long, she always say! Who ask u didn't study hard for it = ="

Okay, for the next stories was

actually i got too much to update!

I failed my assignment, which is two assignment that depending on 100%

when i got my assignment, i really feel so bad about myself

how can i keep on walking on failure in my life

i was so depress seriously, nobody could understand my feelings

Due to the 1st failure, 2nd failures, 3rd and more.....Whenever i think about exam

i start getting very stress, i keep dreaming about it as i had failed the exam! i am so scared

when i was in the exam hall, i can't stop myself from shivering!

Even when i start writing, my hand writing just like chicken hand!!! i can't stop shivering MAN!

Well................................... this is really a bad news for me

i started cry so hard, of course inside my heart! nobody can help me

i feel so stupid of myself, so depress, so ..............

No one can understand my feelings!

Well, i wanna stop here now

i can never finish if i continue~

i will write more in my next post =)

生日快到了

生日快到了，我又老了一岁

今年，我学了很多事，也看开了很多事

都是人生里的事。。。。以前我一直追求做个惹人喜欢的人

因为，我知道，我读书，比不上别人，也没什么特别的才艺

所以，我就想做个让人喜欢的人

一路上的追求，改进。。。。我觉得我改变了很多

虽然不知道是不是个惹人喜欢的人，但是，我已经努力着不意气用事

不发脾气，不斤斤计较，不让人讨厌

有时候，真的很难，因为要委屈自己，才能做到这一些

可是，能搞怎么办呢？唯有努力的去做

以前，我总是给人很懦弱的感觉

我想改变了，我要变得坚强些，我要努力的变强

因为，以前总想要有人保护，所以就算懦弱些也无所谓~

但是，我觉得我好像错了

前几天真的很沮丧，因为我又想起了他

我觉得我自己放下了，可是每当想起他我就觉得好伤心

这事我一辈子的疤痕，我知道，我怎么也不可能抹去，怎么也不能痊愈

和eve聊过后，她告诉我~我要学着去原谅。。。原谅他！也原谅我自己

我知道，以前盲目的追求，这是我自己选择的路，得到这样的结果

我也必须自己去承担这样的痛

因为，没有人可以帮我。。。。。有时候，我很自责！为什么偏偏做这样的选择

这么痛的选择，可以让我不能忘记的选择

也许，这些痛不是你们可以明白的，因为犹如昨天才刚刚发生一样

而且，你们绝对不能体会这样的自责

不过，我知道这道疤痕会跟着我一辈子

所以，我会好好过

我会努力的自我增值

我相信神总会替我预备最好的

所以，我必须坚强些

我不想再做一个容易受伤的人

我会加油

加油的做到

我不是个自爱自怜的人，

因为没有人会可怜你

在这个现实的社会里

如果你越强，别人就会拼命的跟你好

如果你弱了，别人就会努力地往上爬

爬到你的头顶

在大学里也一样。。。。

有时候，怎么不叫人看透？

看透这一切~

新的学期

明天开始上课了~

我很兴奋呢，但是，我知道这兴奋不会持续很久

哈哈哈。。。。

没关系吧，我希望新的学期，新的一年里，我要有所改变

所以，我决定了！不单单只有读书，我还要努力的去做一些平时没做的事

例如 ：运动，看戏，玩游戏，去教堂，去朋友家，睡觉

哈哈哈

我要过得充实一些

不要天天都呆在家里了~~~

认识我的朋友都应该听说了我和housemate的事情

这几天，她又开始和我说话了，其实，我有点摸不透

算了咯，都说了，我已经看开了。。。。我也不会去计较

去在意，愿意和我说话，我就回答，不愿意,我就不说话。

其实，就是那么简单

我打算去做gym了

因为不想一直呆在家里！

嘻嘻

然后要找多多活动~

哈哈。。。。

好了，不说了

最近有点不想update facebook

因为看到大家在过年真的有点伤心

所以，我会努力看戏的！

还有，谢谢妹妹送的生日礼物

其实，你知道的，我没什么想要的

哈哈哈。。。物质上不能满足我

不过，还是谢谢你花了那么多心思

感动-ing ~~~

看到你的卡片的时候，我哭了，哭（是因为我觉得自己太伟大了）

其实和你一点关系都没有！ 哈哈哈哈哈

如果是你，相信你也会和我做同样的事的！

爱你哦 ❤ ~

情不自禁

好多的其实，其实，其实，其实~

其实，我不知道该从何说起

其实，我过得很好，吃得很好，睡得很好

只是assignment有点把我弄疯了~

其实，我在这里很好~

只是，我想说，我想你们了

其实，我想你们很多很多

只是，我不敢想太多，因为想得多就会更想

其实，我一直在压抑着自己的想念

只是，我不想让你们知道我有多想念

其实，我的眼睛都哭得痛了

只是，我不能再哭了

昨天晚上，做了个梦~梦到妈咪

让我好想好想他们

所以，我打了电话。。。。。。。

听到妈咪的声音后，我控制不了自己的情绪了

我哭了，我哭了不是因为我寂寞，不是因为我嫉妒，不是因为我想剩下机票钱

而只是单纯的想你们了~

第一次，可以完整的说出，我想你们了

害得我自己也吓了一跳

我既然说了出来，以前不说，并不代表没有想

只是不懂得怎么说，怕说了让你们担心

其实，我不是嫉妒妹妹回去

只是，我想你们了

我不是不知道我不能回去，只是我想你们了~

我不是不知道你们忙，只是我想你们了~

我不是不知道你们也想着我，只是我想你们了~

我不是不知道你们辛苦，只是我想你们了~

也许忙了快一个月，每个晚上熬夜，赶工

都快要和世界隔绝了

现在才体会到，忙 这个字

其实，我想说的是，我想你们了~