Lonely World.......

Lonely World which deep inside my heart....
Feel a bit upset now, when thinking the problems that happen before
When i know S, is not that happy...i know she is still very upset
Sometimes, i really don't understand! Why those who like you and you dont like
while those who you like don't like you!!!

What happen to this world............my gosh
Why Why Why, just give me a blank world, a empty room
i don't wanna to think about it, i just wanna make my brain rest!
I just wanna stay clam...... I just wanna be silent!

Am i the one who always make mistake?
Ive no idea, i have no way to go
i feel really down, feel suffering, feel hard to breath, feel that something heavy was pressing my heart! Make my heart stop bumping ???
If life is so easy, if human is so easy, if relationship is so easy, if everything is so easy then that's not life anymore?

`Do you miss me` ? Don't know been when i have never heard of this anymore
nearly forget what does this mean.......
but just now someone ask me to miss him.......and i have no feeling on it
cause i don't really bother! Please get me someone that i wan to bother
please find me someone that i want to talk to, Please find me someone that i am interesting with !!!

OTHERs .....................
Feel like kicking myself out of this life
this hurt~ this feelings~

but it always make u pain in the bottom of ur heart~

Lost my way.......

Really, feel so lost.....
Feel so lost of myself, everyday morning go to shop and go back home at half pass five
Then what next? no any entertainment can make me feel happy...
i just feel so lost~

Sharon is sad, i can understand how sad was her...but what to do?
I myself dont even can handle this!
I have no idea what should i do........

I feel like shopping and eating to spend my time!
I feel so bad.....
i feel my life is meaningless, without spiritual
feel like my soul is floating away.....while my body is still doing the same things
Go to work and then back from work

Gosh....i dont know until when i can stop this kind of life
Just now ah c just mention that i got 50+ days left .......
WOW? i feel like missing Sibu so so so much, i feel like missing my family soo much
i feel like dont want to leave this situation, i feel like don get away that fast

YES, if i can adjust the time! But i CANT!!!
Why, i always want to have a better boy friend which is qualified for me
It is my requirement is too high? i don't think so, or may be yes
but i believe i will meet my Mr Right one day.....

Nearly forget what is the feeling in LoVe...
what i got only family and friends...

Feel a bit headache now....... of my life
why human is so weak? why we cant defend sometimes?
We always need a male to be with us...as the pastor said, female must depend on male.
Sometimes, its right but sometimes, i don really agree with it
As, now a day.... Women become strong and stronger !

I am still waiting.........

For P
Happy for u as u said u are in love?
Hope u happy as well....and open ur eyes big big and see clearly!
Bless... Muaksss~


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Tanahmas and Shopping

Huhuhu.........
Quite late to go out today and then being scold by Sharon zzzz
Well, but still finished and happy ending ^^

Today have dinner @ Tanahmas....... With P and S
I order a chicken chop and some chips~It's quite yummy but i am just overload!
TOO Full....... haha
P, order a plate of omellete with fried rice while S, have a piece of cheese cake!
Both are all yummy yummy x.x satisfied with the foods tonight yeah?
Well, also.......i never forget to take a picture of it to share with my buddies
hahaha.......here u go~



The food is delicious and after that we went for shopping @ Parkson, due to the lack of time~ We just had a quick shop actually or not really? LOL
I have no idea, cause i am the one who bought a lots! I am now brankruptcy @_@
Totally Broke now...... Gosh~ I hope the clothes look better
as S said its quite nice, so i just bought it without thinking!
I tot i am abit careless??? well...

hope i get a good feedback after i wear it!

Do u bealieve in True love? just now, someone ask me don be silly to wait for the
true love! lol? No comment =x

F.U.N ?!?!?

Yoohuuuu~
Yesterday, Eiyen said, do u wanna go eat diang miang ngu tomorrow?
I am still thinking and didn't replied him yet and he is offline~
Then i was just so so.........
While, in the morning, Sharon is shouting ` WEI~~~~~~~~~~~~ we are going to eat diang miang ngu! I said Ha???????? Did we plan to do that before? Well...i just knew it without anyone informed me...yet i didn't get mad actually then i said okay! let's go

And i really don't understand why will get mad when i donno anything? erm..... or i mean i am the last person who knew this plan? aHahhhh~
Well, may be i am just less one wire in my brain? i don't know
Then, after that i have a hair cut with Sharon at V-Hair~
Well, so far i feel hopeless with my hair then i don't wanna make any comment on it!
HAHA, doesn't mean i don't like the barber who cut my hair or i don't like my hair style, just because i really hate that my curly hair!!!
Gosh, i really can't bear with it! Why when they perm my hair and it's look just
wonderful, just awesome, its very straight and very nice looking
While, when i perm it, and it just a mess!!! Just like rubbish!

That's why i am fade up with it! And i feel hopeless of it!!!
What i want to do is REBONDING!!! YES! i want it to be straight!!!
Quite mad with my messy hair @_@ like a bunches of grass.....

In the aftenoon, i am staying at home with my little brother and sister
They are totally an EVIL!!! annoying to stay together with them and make me
high blood pressure as get mad with them! LOL...
But i fall asleep while watching the Tv and lay on the sofa, and i just sleep directly, the funny part was~ When Sharon is back and she is looking at me
I tot which plum gal is this standing in front of me and looking at me
Then after 3 second I just get awaken, oh...this is Sharon! hahaha
Cause she had cut her hair until shoulder length, then it's a bit difficult for me
to accept her as i just wake up from nap! LOL~

Night, P said let's go shopping together~ Then we had pizza as our dinner
and we spend quite lots time at pizza hut @_@
Then, just walk around at Parkson, its not really much changed actually
and as usual, didn't meet any friends that i recognised or i want to know
Cause i really don't care much about those friends as they do so as well
haha~
Well....it's time to bed now~ as we got the last quite time or bible study tomorrow
with our lovely Carter brother
gonna miss him much as he is back to Newcastle soon!!!
keke

Tatar.........................

Satisfied!!!

Well.....today have dinner at Golden Happiness !!!
I am quite satisfied with the yam now~ haha........as i have 1st the yam as the appetite and then the dessert as the yam as well~
LOL......i love yam lots, i mean yam for cooked or fried @_@ its a bit hard to have
a really nice yam in UK actually~
Since then i desire to have it very much, and finally i got it!
I am quite satisfied with it right now~

In the morning, i have kompia and Kampua as well...
Now, i am really really satisfied with the foods in Sibu!
Hahaha~
Fei is leaving to KL already, and i will never got chance to meet her anymore
And about Yuan, i don't even have any news from them and i don't know
what happen with them now~
As all of my friends are back from UK and of course we got almost gathering everyday!
WOw.......but i really love to spend time together with them!
The time like past really really fast and it's awesome!!!
I really hope that we will have fun again........but i think it's a bit difficult~
As everyone is going to difference city now

Feel a bit upset actually when i think that everyone is leaving
and don't even meet up and have fun together again when we r in Newcastle
yet, i got 2 more years leave, and i need to work seriously already
cause i am feel hopeless already for seeking a good partner and all i want is
depend on myself!!! I need to start working and save money for myself~

When i think about this i am really scared!
i hope i can ignored it, but the time is coming very soon
i really need to prepared for it!!!

While at the night time, i really feel it's too early to reach home
and Sharon said, why you will think like this, isn't it good to reach home a bit earlier? This really make me blank suddenly, why i am thinking this way!
I dont know...and i dont know how to answer her question as well
I always always like to town which is dark and less car on the road, and i will drive alone on the road at night~
I don't know why.........

Hmmm........
Although i am tired but still i like it~
Hope i can enjoyed my coming summer holidays and do somethings meaningful~

Sunday to Church!

Today was so so for me as its rainy day today!
And my younger sister was stomache suddenly in the morning,
so other of my family go to the church first and leave me and my yonger sister at home since i know how to drive so been asked to wait for her and take her to the church together with me!!!

Well....actually i am quite mad with them how can they do that to me!!! Gosh
However, luckily i found a really nice car park also at the end!!!
As u know its rainy day and its really difficult to find a car park.
Thanks God ^^
Then the time was past really fast.....
I saw lots of my friends actually but didn't really greet them as its rushing time!
We need to move out after the church is finished.

IT's really awesome to spend time with all my friends! I really love it
We have gathering again at Shirly's house!
As we are in UK......
Also, although their are something happen between us? i don't know
Also, thanks Carter who always encourage! And support!
Thanks God which let me meet him and all of my friends!

I will cherish the relationship between us always!

Love yah all my friends ^^

I feel like crying!!!

I am really really upset right now!
I am really really sad right now!
I am really really wanna to cry now!

Why everything changed when we are back?
WHY WHY WHY???

I don't want to be like this!
If this is happened, i rather i am in NEWCASTLE NOW!
i rather i never come back to SIBU!!!!

E and P................i am really upset of both of u!
i really don't know how to do anymore
don't know how to say anymore!
May be the more i said i got more mistaken ~
I really have no way.........E, i really miss u lots
i really wanna have fun with u in KK......but i don't want to force
i want everyone happy!

P, i dont know how to explain anymore!!! i dont know how to do anymore
i dont know what to say anymore
but i really dont wan to see u be like this

i am really upset ...........