Gosh, It's December already....

Time flies without your noticing, everyone change when you are not realised!

I nearly forgot what does Love mean! The Love is love between couples, between boys and girls. Cause it fade away in my heart..... Before, how strongly i desire for a love for not feeling lonely and being love or care? but now not anymore... why? i am heartless? may be you can say that, but not totally!

The love, that couldn't fill by the love from families, friends, strangers, even GOD. Or i am wrong? i have no idea. Why do i feel emptiness in my heart? they will told me, try to find something to do? try to do some study? try to read the bible? No.....I just don't want to do anything beside feeling emptiness. cause i end up doing nothing at the end! and nobody can understand how do i feel!

Today having my IT class...the bloody lamp is crash! or my stupid lecturer have adjust the wrong button, the lamp keep on on and off itself! And my eyes like keep on blinking in light n dark, light n dark! What the hell, this environment n situation make me headache and dizzy.......How much i hope i could run away from the class! The lecturer keep on scolding the lamp but doing nothing! He said: oh, bloody hell get of from this room! = =" doesn't make sense? He ask the lamp go out from the room but i think he is the one who need to go out from the room!!!

Finally, when finish the class, i using the computer outside the room also, waiting for P and the next class. Then P said, S ask us to buy some vege due to end of stock! hahaha.....then P said, my face was red, and i feel not very well as well = ="
then, we going to Morrison for some vege and go back home for rest!
Gosh, rainy day today its shivering cold........
After having dinner, it was delicious!!! haha~ the stupid line is so slow again
its always so slow during 7 to 10 or 12! don't know wat happen with it = ="
stupid Line..............

Arha......going to Leeds and York this coming Saturday! woohoo~
I m Loving It!!! ^_^
Happy happy happy.......finally, can go travel =P

Sharon's curry

Wake up in furious due to Sharon `Si beh` Smelly hair lotion or what the bloody hell is that i have no IDEA!!! I WAS In FURIOUS cause been force to wake up when i smell that make me can't breath!!! For those who know me well know that i got some sensitive problem or allergy with my nose!
YES, I use to SNORE when i was sleep! so don't ask me are you snoring? or what
i hate when ppl say that behind ME! I AM JUST SNORED SO WHAT??? if u feel i am disturbing can't you just cut ur ears? or need a ear plug? I DON't CARE~
WELL...............that stupid idiot smell really make me breathless and i sleep at 5.++ something last night thats why i feel so furious when i wake up!!!

FEEl like BANG the door and Throw her things out from my ROOM!!! BLOODY SMELL......
i hate that!!! cause everytime when i smell those smell, its make me breathless and make me feel hot inside my body when i breath like when i am in SICK!!!
If i smell the smoke from cigarette got the same affect!! thats why i "HATE the smell!

Well, after that, i continue my sleep and hiding myself inside my duvet! to prevent
the smelly smell not come into my duvet x.x
Then she went out to school, when i was awake again, its 4 something x.x
I am really starving MAN.........didn't take any foods during this time!
but i a waiting for sharon's curry cause she said she gonna cook curry for us! LOL
Well.........The curry taste nice actually, i love chicken! haha
Surprisingly found out the `bread skin` donno what it's called when i make it hot, the taste js like roti canai!!! COOl.........i love it i love it~~~~

End up with curry for dinner........then blogging now~
Hmm...thinking what we gonna have for tomorrow dinner? hehe

Improving...

Due to the reminding by S, she said, hey both of u didn't update ur blogs for ages!
In my mind, oh yeah, been ages didn't come into blog cause lazy to blogging! haha
Is this consider as a good excuses? With the happening months, there are so much things happen! Troublesome? happiness? moody? Anger? Ain't all this life is meaningless?
May be you will say in this way, but NAH!!!! Without this, we can't GROW~

Let's recall.......hmmmmmpppppppppp
When i was young............
Now, i found that i have changed a lot!!! May be i don't need someone to judge or
make conclusion for me but I KNOW, I HAVE CHANGED! i am trying my best to change!
Like,what i say, if God create us in Unique why do we need to change? But no......
We can't take this reason as an excuse and kick all the righteousness away, like strike down a boat in mandarin if i have not mistaken!
I change because i want to throw away the bad habit, i want to live more like Jesus.
While God always give me strength and wisdom to guide me! Thanks lord for that
Also, i learn to not bother, not bother so much, so i can let it go~

Before, i use to keep everything in my heart, but i know its not a good way!
Cause i always spread it out for certainly people only, for those who know me well.
yeah, i am always in this way, slowly, i found out i am quite in toward myself.
This is really bad huh? this make me have less friends.
I m trying to improving. trying to learn, as what i set this goal for myself this year. I listen to others quietly and i think wisely with my brain then i make a
conclusion, before, i use to say something brainless? i think i am, talk something
too fast when i am in anger and now i try to control it!

Thanks God who always be with me, always lead me and grow me in my path!
I do appreciated. but one, i still can't manage to follow up is reading the bible.
I will try, really....try to start reading the bible for not going so far away from GOD.

I don't know what i am writing now, if you could understand me then thats good
for those who don't understand i am sorry about that =x
may be i am writing something doesn't make sense but hope it would be a good chance
to share with all my friends ^^