Gosh, It's December already....

Time flies without your noticing, everyone change when you are not realised!

I nearly forgot what does Love mean! The Love is love between couples, between boys and girls. Cause it fade away in my heart..... Before, how strongly i desire for a love for not feeling lonely and being love or care? but now not anymore... why? i am heartless? may be you can say that, but not totally!

The love, that couldn't fill by the love from families, friends, strangers, even GOD. Or i am wrong? i have no idea. Why do i feel emptiness in my heart? they will told me, try to find something to do? try to do some study? try to read the bible? No.....I just don't want to do anything beside feeling emptiness. cause i end up doing nothing at the end! and nobody can understand how do i feel!

Today having my IT class...the bloody lamp is crash! or my stupid lecturer have adjust the wrong button, the lamp keep on on and off itself! And my eyes like keep on blinking in light n dark, light n dark! What the hell, this environment n situation make me headache and dizzy.......How much i hope i could run away from the class! The lecturer keep on scolding the lamp but doing nothing! He said: oh, bloody hell get of from this room! = =" doesn't make sense? He ask the lamp go out from the room but i think he is the one who need to go out from the room!!!

Finally, when finish the class, i using the computer outside the room also, waiting for P and the next class. Then P said, S ask us to buy some vege due to end of stock! hahaha.....then P said, my face was red, and i feel not very well as well = ="
then, we going to Morrison for some vege and go back home for rest!
Gosh, rainy day today its shivering cold........
After having dinner, it was delicious!!! haha~ the stupid line is so slow again
its always so slow during 7 to 10 or 12! don't know wat happen with it = ="
stupid Line..............

Arha......going to Leeds and York this coming Saturday! woohoo~
I m Loving It!!! ^_^
Happy happy happy.......finally, can go travel =P

Sharon's curry

Wake up in furious due to Sharon `Si beh` Smelly hair lotion or what the bloody hell is that i have no IDEA!!! I WAS In FURIOUS cause been force to wake up when i smell that make me can't breath!!! For those who know me well know that i got some sensitive problem or allergy with my nose!
YES, I use to SNORE when i was sleep! so don't ask me are you snoring? or what
i hate when ppl say that behind ME! I AM JUST SNORED SO WHAT??? if u feel i am disturbing can't you just cut ur ears? or need a ear plug? I DON't CARE~
WELL...............that stupid idiot smell really make me breathless and i sleep at 5.++ something last night thats why i feel so furious when i wake up!!!

FEEl like BANG the door and Throw her things out from my ROOM!!! BLOODY SMELL......
i hate that!!! cause everytime when i smell those smell, its make me breathless and make me feel hot inside my body when i breath like when i am in SICK!!!
If i smell the smoke from cigarette got the same affect!! thats why i "HATE the smell!

Well, after that, i continue my sleep and hiding myself inside my duvet! to prevent
the smelly smell not come into my duvet x.x
Then she went out to school, when i was awake again, its 4 something x.x
I am really starving MAN.........didn't take any foods during this time!
but i a waiting for sharon's curry cause she said she gonna cook curry for us! LOL
Well.........The curry taste nice actually, i love chicken! haha
Surprisingly found out the `bread skin` donno what it's called when i make it hot, the taste js like roti canai!!! COOl.........i love it i love it~~~~

End up with curry for dinner........then blogging now~
Hmm...thinking what we gonna have for tomorrow dinner? hehe

Improving...

Due to the reminding by S, she said, hey both of u didn't update ur blogs for ages!
In my mind, oh yeah, been ages didn't come into blog cause lazy to blogging! haha
Is this consider as a good excuses? With the happening months, there are so much things happen! Troublesome? happiness? moody? Anger? Ain't all this life is meaningless?
May be you will say in this way, but NAH!!!! Without this, we can't GROW~

Let's recall.......hmmmmmpppppppppp
When i was young............
Now, i found that i have changed a lot!!! May be i don't need someone to judge or
make conclusion for me but I KNOW, I HAVE CHANGED! i am trying my best to change!
Like,what i say, if God create us in Unique why do we need to change? But no......
We can't take this reason as an excuse and kick all the righteousness away, like strike down a boat in mandarin if i have not mistaken!
I change because i want to throw away the bad habit, i want to live more like Jesus.
While God always give me strength and wisdom to guide me! Thanks lord for that
Also, i learn to not bother, not bother so much, so i can let it go~

Before, i use to keep everything in my heart, but i know its not a good way!
Cause i always spread it out for certainly people only, for those who know me well.
yeah, i am always in this way, slowly, i found out i am quite in toward myself.
This is really bad huh? this make me have less friends.
I m trying to improving. trying to learn, as what i set this goal for myself this year. I listen to others quietly and i think wisely with my brain then i make a
conclusion, before, i use to say something brainless? i think i am, talk something
too fast when i am in anger and now i try to control it!

Thanks God who always be with me, always lead me and grow me in my path!
I do appreciated. but one, i still can't manage to follow up is reading the bible.
I will try, really....try to start reading the bible for not going so far away from GOD.

I don't know what i am writing now, if you could understand me then thats good
for those who don't understand i am sorry about that =x
may be i am writing something doesn't make sense but hope it would be a good chance
to share with all my friends ^^

Tiring like a dead fish........

It's long long ago from my last post...
I am not really in mood to typing for last few months, everytime when i try to type
something but always end up with blank!!!

I do feel depress, happy, sad, last few weeks.
And i started miss Sibu's moment... how terrible can you image? Just a month....
OMG!!! NO Way, i gonna stop myself from missing those moment this make me suffer!
Finally, i start my class as well... What i can say, it's boring like hell
Dad was right, this is really my last last chance!!!
I am trying to upgrade myself...really!!! i mean like knowledge? or life?
Anyways... i hope its gonna work!!!

Well.....Today i am really tired and happy tot, cause was cooking 5 dishes alone only by myself!!! Where is P??? actually, she is busy to tidy up the living room, so i force to manage everything by myself! Cool, as last, i have ready with 5 dishes. Hopefully everyone enjoy the foods, chitchating and the stupid games!
Feel like gathering getting boring without bunch of monkeys for examples, Eiyen, Eijing, Ahlung!!! lolsss... U know why? Cause they always get involved in and then end up with dry laugh! hahaha.......It's FUNNY MAN
As long as its funny for me...lalala

Really need to pass my exam! my exam! sigh.....
i feel hopeless with it but i can do nothing beside facing it
i hope can draw nearer to God, and i wanna try to change myself
i really don't care whether i can change u into other mind or not! But as least, i am
trying to change myself!!!
What i can do is js bless and pray for u!
Hope u fine thr............

x.x TIRED

Night....

Feelings when i am reaching UK.....

Da 1st day when i reach Newcastle, S is leaving now to stay in the homestay!
Well, although i knew it, but when she is leaving i feel kinda sad! And also the
feeling is just in time to appear at da time! Gosh.......
My heart is like press by the stone, i feel suffer! BREATHLESS!
I didn't have chance to walk in and even say Hello to her guardian since
Shirly said, let's go~ i feel bad about that, i don't know what should i answer at
that time, should i say, wait? (cause S don't even got a number, i can't call her!
And i don't know whether she is good over there or not!)or i should go in her house and have a tea 1st? its blank inside my mind, and i just sit back into the car~

Shirly drove away, then she said, everything was changed!
Tears, is rolling inside my eyes~ i feel bad! why everyone is Gone?
After i reach home, i saw Peony! She said she is happy cause finally i've back,
She is not more alone in da house~ But for me......i am still alone!
Cause S is not with me, and P is not back yet!
I feel a bit comfort cause P is coming back, and also i got P to talk to!
However, who knows~ P is back..................

Wuhoo, should i be happy with that? The answer is NO!!!
Although P is back, her cousin is with her. Of course i welcoming them to stay here
but P never care about us! She is busy? busy with her cousin!
Well......or i should never care about that? i feel disappoint ....
Now, its real! Everything is changed~ my flatmates, only foods never changed

Day after day, i feel its grow more conflicts!
May be we know but we never say it out~
However, i don't really like to make more conflicts so i am hiding it. try to tolerance hope it might bring peace~

Now, i actually feel that, i need to grow up!
I don't really need to care much, what's the point to teach other?
I have no right to do that! Also, others never listen to you as well
So now, i am trying to bear and i know God will lead me!
thank you Lord who puts someone beside me, which i can asked for help
and talk to when i am mad......he can pull me down!
I believe i can do better after that!

Thanks God for his Love which endures forever.

Updated with some of my pictures ^-^

Hehe.........heres my pictures,
very long didn't update my blog due to my laziness lols....
Also, having busy day? or i dont know~ as long as i din't come to blog so long
Feel like to update with some of my pics, aha~ here you go
Going back to Uk very soon...gonna miss da time in sibu!!!







Tata.....................
boring x.x

Good Bye Emotion....

Teehee.............
Good bye Emotion ?!?!? = ="
That's mean i am gonna say byebye to emotion!
Cause i am and don't want to be like others~As always thinking that i am
such an emotion! Well, i wanna throw my emotion away!
I don't wanna be emotion! Well, may be u can say it hard!

However, i can tell you! Emotion, is not always follow you but you yourself
is always find emotion so make you feel so emotion, got wat i mean?
LOL....i think its all about your mind, your thinking! Thats why feel emotion...
Aha... i do feel emotion as well, very often? sometimes? always? i don't really remember, as long as...i am quit!

Doesn't mean that i will never feel emotion or upset in coming times
but i do try to get away from those emotion staff, make myself happy but not because of others or something that can bother me or mess up my mind
i just wanna get rid from that, see........I am happy now!
Yoohoo~ Pull myself out from the tricky, suffering, tough! cause i dont wanna to
have it and be with it!!!

Soon.......very soon, i need to be really really get into this social!
Get into this world.......
i still need to face a lots of difference people, difference attitude, difference personality and so on...... i don't think i can handle this well!
But i would love to try......
may be there is a smile on face, but who knows what was behind them?
I heard a pastor said, human is the most dangerous animals in this world,
Cause we never know what people thinking whoever beside us? Will he/she be loyal to you? Never never guess about that, cause this may pull u down!

Even dog can be good friend with human, dog can be loyal to human.
thats why, sometimes human rather talk to a dog compare to the human!
May be not dog, a cat? a hamster? a rabbit? ...........

=)
MAke your brain roll!
Start thinking now, start recall now!
What, why, where, when........
mind is start working now~

Everything is just go through your mind....
and things will changed difference !!!

Day after day~

Have been suffering with the sunburn since come back from KK......
I got really serious sunburn x.x After reach sibu, i go to clinic directly,
and the doctor said it's quite serious, like being pour by the hot water! LOL
i don't know i want to laugh or cry when i heard that!
All in all, i got the medicine and then dad fetch us home.

I can't even sleep well with the sunburn cause its really pain.
What i want to say the KK trip is really awesome! I am great to have this trip during
my summer holidays~
Well, i really miss those moment while in KK......The relationship was peace
everyone is happy going on! we have fun and jokes with each other without worrying
whether she/he is hurting or not? or i can say.....we just say whatever we want~
Also, this is quite bad to make decision as everyone is so cincai! LOL
Cause this is what a nice personality called AS! well......thats why i really love
i really really love to spend time with them, really love to have fun with them
Yet, we won't have any quarreling between us! thats why i am satisfied with this journey.... But, what i want to say is, i feel guilty or paiseh to make others can't
sleep well at night because of my horrible snores =x...
See, i am really mind about this actually but i also dare to admit, as we are friends

After back from KK, i feel time passing really fast, one more month to go, i am going
back to newcastle again....Last few days, while chatting with Shirley, she said i
am a choosy person on friends? Woaw...i just realised! yeap, i admit i am! LOL
Cc.....thank you to being my friends~ i really love to have you to be my friends!

Feel something is going far apart from me..i don't know why!
I don't mind actually, i don't care~ but i am making a decision!
I just want to know this is hate or love? or may be i just can be somebody or nobody
Then i don't care , i don't want to care so much! Ur life is ur business while mine
is my business, start from now~
I don't wanna to bother about you anymore...... really =)
cause u just show me that you are nothing for me! what you say are all craps...
i wunt want to try so hard to bear with u, i dont want to hide again!
You are still immature .......This is what i want to say~ well

Times go, day come...everything seems like change and change~
But personality or character will always be there x.x
a tricky mission tot sob sob....

Mapling @_@
lols
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miss korean foods and chicken ass lol~

Lonely World.......

Lonely World which deep inside my heart....
Feel a bit upset now, when thinking the problems that happen before
When i know S, is not that happy...i know she is still very upset
Sometimes, i really don't understand! Why those who like you and you dont like
while those who you like don't like you!!!

What happen to this world............my gosh
Why Why Why, just give me a blank world, a empty room
i don't wanna to think about it, i just wanna make my brain rest!
I just wanna stay clam...... I just wanna be silent!

Am i the one who always make mistake?
Ive no idea, i have no way to go
i feel really down, feel suffering, feel hard to breath, feel that something heavy was pressing my heart! Make my heart stop bumping ???
If life is so easy, if human is so easy, if relationship is so easy, if everything is so easy then that's not life anymore?

`Do you miss me` ? Don't know been when i have never heard of this anymore
nearly forget what does this mean.......
but just now someone ask me to miss him.......and i have no feeling on it
cause i don't really bother! Please get me someone that i wan to bother
please find me someone that i want to talk to, Please find me someone that i am interesting with !!!

OTHERs .....................
Feel like kicking myself out of this life
this hurt~ this feelings~

but it always make u pain in the bottom of ur heart~

Lost my way.......

Really, feel so lost.....
Feel so lost of myself, everyday morning go to shop and go back home at half pass five
Then what next? no any entertainment can make me feel happy...
i just feel so lost~

Sharon is sad, i can understand how sad was her...but what to do?
I myself dont even can handle this!
I have no idea what should i do........

I feel like shopping and eating to spend my time!
I feel so bad.....
i feel my life is meaningless, without spiritual
feel like my soul is floating away.....while my body is still doing the same things
Go to work and then back from work

Gosh....i dont know until when i can stop this kind of life
Just now ah c just mention that i got 50+ days left .......
WOW? i feel like missing Sibu so so so much, i feel like missing my family soo much
i feel like dont want to leave this situation, i feel like don get away that fast

YES, if i can adjust the time! But i CANT!!!
Why, i always want to have a better boy friend which is qualified for me
It is my requirement is too high? i don't think so, or may be yes
but i believe i will meet my Mr Right one day.....

Nearly forget what is the feeling in LoVe...
what i got only family and friends...

Feel a bit headache now....... of my life
why human is so weak? why we cant defend sometimes?
We always need a male to be with us...as the pastor said, female must depend on male.
Sometimes, its right but sometimes, i don really agree with it
As, now a day.... Women become strong and stronger !

I am still waiting.........

For P
Happy for u as u said u are in love?
Hope u happy as well....and open ur eyes big big and see clearly!
Bless... Muaksss~


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Tanahmas and Shopping

Huhuhu.........
Quite late to go out today and then being scold by Sharon zzzz
Well, but still finished and happy ending ^^

Today have dinner @ Tanahmas....... With P and S
I order a chicken chop and some chips~It's quite yummy but i am just overload!
TOO Full....... haha
P, order a plate of omellete with fried rice while S, have a piece of cheese cake!
Both are all yummy yummy x.x satisfied with the foods tonight yeah?
Well, also.......i never forget to take a picture of it to share with my buddies
hahaha.......here u go~



The food is delicious and after that we went for shopping @ Parkson, due to the lack of time~ We just had a quick shop actually or not really? LOL
I have no idea, cause i am the one who bought a lots! I am now brankruptcy @_@
Totally Broke now...... Gosh~ I hope the clothes look better
as S said its quite nice, so i just bought it without thinking!
I tot i am abit careless??? well...

hope i get a good feedback after i wear it!

Do u bealieve in True love? just now, someone ask me don be silly to wait for the
true love! lol? No comment =x

F.U.N ?!?!?

Yoohuuuu~
Yesterday, Eiyen said, do u wanna go eat diang miang ngu tomorrow?
I am still thinking and didn't replied him yet and he is offline~
Then i was just so so.........
While, in the morning, Sharon is shouting ` WEI~~~~~~~~~~~~ we are going to eat diang miang ngu! I said Ha???????? Did we plan to do that before? Well...i just knew it without anyone informed me...yet i didn't get mad actually then i said okay! let's go

And i really don't understand why will get mad when i donno anything? erm..... or i mean i am the last person who knew this plan? aHahhhh~
Well, may be i am just less one wire in my brain? i don't know
Then, after that i have a hair cut with Sharon at V-Hair~
Well, so far i feel hopeless with my hair then i don't wanna make any comment on it!
HAHA, doesn't mean i don't like the barber who cut my hair or i don't like my hair style, just because i really hate that my curly hair!!!
Gosh, i really can't bear with it! Why when they perm my hair and it's look just
wonderful, just awesome, its very straight and very nice looking
While, when i perm it, and it just a mess!!! Just like rubbish!

That's why i am fade up with it! And i feel hopeless of it!!!
What i want to do is REBONDING!!! YES! i want it to be straight!!!
Quite mad with my messy hair @_@ like a bunches of grass.....

In the aftenoon, i am staying at home with my little brother and sister
They are totally an EVIL!!! annoying to stay together with them and make me
high blood pressure as get mad with them! LOL...
But i fall asleep while watching the Tv and lay on the sofa, and i just sleep directly, the funny part was~ When Sharon is back and she is looking at me
I tot which plum gal is this standing in front of me and looking at me
Then after 3 second I just get awaken, oh...this is Sharon! hahaha
Cause she had cut her hair until shoulder length, then it's a bit difficult for me
to accept her as i just wake up from nap! LOL~

Night, P said let's go shopping together~ Then we had pizza as our dinner
and we spend quite lots time at pizza hut @_@
Then, just walk around at Parkson, its not really much changed actually
and as usual, didn't meet any friends that i recognised or i want to know
Cause i really don't care much about those friends as they do so as well
haha~
Well....it's time to bed now~ as we got the last quite time or bible study tomorrow
with our lovely Carter brother
gonna miss him much as he is back to Newcastle soon!!!
keke

Tatar.........................

Satisfied!!!

Well.....today have dinner at Golden Happiness !!!
I am quite satisfied with the yam now~ haha........as i have 1st the yam as the appetite and then the dessert as the yam as well~
LOL......i love yam lots, i mean yam for cooked or fried @_@ its a bit hard to have
a really nice yam in UK actually~
Since then i desire to have it very much, and finally i got it!
I am quite satisfied with it right now~

In the morning, i have kompia and Kampua as well...
Now, i am really really satisfied with the foods in Sibu!
Hahaha~
Fei is leaving to KL already, and i will never got chance to meet her anymore
And about Yuan, i don't even have any news from them and i don't know
what happen with them now~
As all of my friends are back from UK and of course we got almost gathering everyday!
WOw.......but i really love to spend time together with them!
The time like past really really fast and it's awesome!!!
I really hope that we will have fun again........but i think it's a bit difficult~
As everyone is going to difference city now

Feel a bit upset actually when i think that everyone is leaving
and don't even meet up and have fun together again when we r in Newcastle
yet, i got 2 more years leave, and i need to work seriously already
cause i am feel hopeless already for seeking a good partner and all i want is
depend on myself!!! I need to start working and save money for myself~

When i think about this i am really scared!
i hope i can ignored it, but the time is coming very soon
i really need to prepared for it!!!

While at the night time, i really feel it's too early to reach home
and Sharon said, why you will think like this, isn't it good to reach home a bit earlier? This really make me blank suddenly, why i am thinking this way!
I dont know...and i dont know how to answer her question as well
I always always like to town which is dark and less car on the road, and i will drive alone on the road at night~
I don't know why.........

Hmmm........
Although i am tired but still i like it~
Hope i can enjoyed my coming summer holidays and do somethings meaningful~

Sunday to Church!

Today was so so for me as its rainy day today!
And my younger sister was stomache suddenly in the morning,
so other of my family go to the church first and leave me and my yonger sister at home since i know how to drive so been asked to wait for her and take her to the church together with me!!!

Well....actually i am quite mad with them how can they do that to me!!! Gosh
However, luckily i found a really nice car park also at the end!!!
As u know its rainy day and its really difficult to find a car park.
Thanks God ^^
Then the time was past really fast.....
I saw lots of my friends actually but didn't really greet them as its rushing time!
We need to move out after the church is finished.

IT's really awesome to spend time with all my friends! I really love it
We have gathering again at Shirly's house!
As we are in UK......
Also, although their are something happen between us? i don't know
Also, thanks Carter who always encourage! And support!
Thanks God which let me meet him and all of my friends!

I will cherish the relationship between us always!

Love yah all my friends ^^

I feel like crying!!!

I am really really upset right now!
I am really really sad right now!
I am really really wanna to cry now!

Why everything changed when we are back?
WHY WHY WHY???

I don't want to be like this!
If this is happened, i rather i am in NEWCASTLE NOW!
i rather i never come back to SIBU!!!!

E and P................i am really upset of both of u!
i really don't know how to do anymore
don't know how to say anymore!
May be the more i said i got more mistaken ~
I really have no way.........E, i really miss u lots
i really wanna have fun with u in KK......but i don't want to force
i want everyone happy!

P, i dont know how to explain anymore!!! i dont know how to do anymore
i dont know what to say anymore
but i really dont wan to see u be like this

i am really upset ...........

My emotion...

After reading S's blog i am very emotion.......
Although last night i hd talk about this with one of my friends,
but at the end, i still can't get any way out from it!
I really don't know what to do~

Well...i am doing housework, but i am doing silently myself!
May be u don't know, may be u can't see~ but i wont just show u that i am doing
the work!!!
I am really upset when dad said that, i nearly cried out when dad
say that to me.....If you feel really difficult why you want to send me out
i don't understan......

I know, all of this is my fault! i know you do this is for my own good
is for my future!!! i really really don't want to make u feel depress of me!
I am sorry dad......i am sorry i was such lazy! i am sorry i can't help u anything!
But, ur words really hurt me so deep!
Sometime i really feel helpless and i have no idea what should i do for the next!
I do really get mad and angry why da always can't understand our feelings
but i know he do h ave a soft heart which love us really much!
So that he will make this decision! Although he is really difficult with his economics but i know no matter what happen
he will got his way to paid for us! Let us finish our education!

I am really glad
about that!
thats why i really dont like to stay at home!
I just want to escape with those mess, those nagging, those quarrell, those #$$%@$%!@
Stop now, still wanna face the customers, don't feel wanna faced them with all my tears in my eyes.........
feel so sad but i dont know why~

The 100 truth x.x dont tell lie!

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 10 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.


-Fui fui

-Cecilia

-Pauline

-Evelyn

-AH Wa

-Girly

-Annie

-Victor

-Cbeng

-Brian

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage:egg tart which made by Angeline
2. Last phone call: Ah c
3. Last text message: Yuan
4. Last song you listened to: Currently, Tong Hua
5. Last time you cried: Er......Before come back, Very long

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Yeap
7. Been cheated on: Yep!
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: LOL....Yah
9. Lost someone special: Nop
10. Been depressed: YUP
11. Been drunk and threw up: No

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Black
13. Pink
14. Purple.blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: YEAH~
16. Fallen out of love: No?
17. Laughed until you cried: no yet
18. Met someone who changed you: NOP
19. Found out who your true friends were: i know who will always be =)
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yup but not sure~
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: = =" no
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: all....
23. How many kids do you want to have : 2 or 3
24. Do you have any pets: Fish and tortise
25. Do you want to change your name: nop, i love it
26. What did you do for your last birthday: HOT POT?
27. What time did you wake up today: 10 heard from my mum... but i dont know
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Sing K and Driving home
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Travel to kl, kch and sabah
30. Last time you saw your Mother: this afternoon
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: changed myself!!!
32. What are you listening to right now: Hei bai pei
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: NOP
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing....
35. Most visited webpage: blogger and facebook
36. Whats your real name: Lee Hui San
37. Nicknames: Jasmine/sansan/nini
38. Relationship Status: Single and available..
39. Zodiac sign: Aquarius
40. Male or female?: Female
41. Elementary?: SJK(C) Methodist
42. Middle School?: SMK Methodist
43. High school/college?: Newcastle College, Northumbria University
44. Hair colour: Dark Blonde/BLACK
45. Long or short: Long
46. Height: 163cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: nop
48. What do you like about yourself?: Kind and nice
49. Piercings: right 3 left 1
50. Tattoos: nop, its pain
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Er.....when inside NS
53. First piercing: Kindergarden 2
54. First best friend: Wong Chui Fei
55. First sport you joined: Netball
56. First vacation: Kuching
58. First pair of trainers: Dont remember

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: Er....eat wat?
60. Drinking: Can i have some cold drinks please
61. I'm about to: finish this and surfing on net
62. Listening to: songs in kugo
63. Waiting to: 5pm and go back home

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: yes
65. Get Married?: of cos, aroun 25 26
66. Career?: have my own shop and doing business


WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Huggie
69. Shorter or taller: Taller than me
70. Older or Younger: Younger
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Both
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: haha.....Nice arms
73. Sensitive or loud: middle
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship~
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: NEver. h1n1
77. Drank hard liquor: nop
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yep
79. Sex on first date: Nop....
80. Broken someone's heart: think so?
82. Been arrested: not sure
83. Turned someone down: yea.. think so..
84. Cried when someone died: yep!
85. Fallen for a friend?: no idea

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: not really
87. Miracles: its do happen
88. Love at first sight: no
89. Heaven: YES
90. Santa Claus: nop
91. Kiss on the first date : no
92. Angels: yeah!

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: before
95. Did you sing today?: Yep, just now, sing alone
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: sometimes
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: when i was a baby
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: when my gandparent still alive!
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: YEs~

Yuan's birthday~

Yeah...Today is Yuan's birthday!!! She is one of my best buddy in my secondary school
We are 3 flowers and a tree.... haha
I love them x.x

Yuan have stayed whole afternoon in my house but we didn't really talk much
as i am keep on went out to help my mum
to do her renovation @_@ its quite annoying actually!!!

Well... anyways, Yuan had dress up with her only dress
haha, its a good news actually for me~ U dont understand, nevermind!
then we go out have dinner together in cafe cafe
The tuna toast is quite yummy while other just so so....

After that, we went to Kingwood to sing K
i bet no one want to sing in Kingwood as there lausy sounds system and DJ
The DJ is a girl, i think she can sing quite nice but her service is really dumb
She was just like not her business and in her moody ways!
Gosh, its really sweep my mood away...



Anyways, we take some picture before we leave~ then, our gathering just end up
like this cause everyone is tired already and wanna go home to sleep
TaTa.......the stories for today is END! its the time to sleep
but i dont feel want to sleep x.x Sigh~ tOO BAD!!!

My second blogs when i was in the OFFICE

(1)請問尊姓大名？
Jasmine
(2)性別是男是女還是人妖？
Definitly GIRL
(3)今年多老了？
21
(4)結婚生子沒？
No yet, dont even have a boyfriend?
(5)每天早上起床第一件事是
Go downstair watch tv or raise the clothes
(6)睡前最後做的事是
sleeping mask
(7)你信上帝嗎？
Yes, i believe in GOD
(8)你是佛教的嗎？
No
(9)你有想過去沙漠還是極地定居嗎？
Nop...
(10)你住在地球的哪兩半球？
Middle...
(11)你對自己的家有啥想法？
Sweets
(12)對於「殺生」你的觀點是？
As Long as not human~
(13)你家有養寵物嗎？你覺得牠可愛還是可恨？
Fish and tortise consider as? I don't bother!
(14)對於自己的外貌，是大大滿意還是大大唾棄？
hmm....Not bad lor? Still cute XD~
(15)覺得自己夠娘還是夠MAN？
Half half baH?
(16)最看不爽自己哪一點？
Breath loudly...haha

【　貳，　獨家調查Ｎ代秘辛　】
(17)請問，你是你家第幾代男／女兒？
3 from my granny XD~ am i correct? i am the 3rd generation
(18)你覺得你父母囉唆嗎？
Mum is always nagging!!! Ingored her!
(19)你覺得你父母老到不行還是年輕爆了？
Not really old yet not very young also
(20)如果有一天父母跟你說，你是私生子，你會？
HAHA....no wonder u treat me like this = ="
(21)如果你父母已經替你決定好結婚對象，結果是個超級大宅男／女卻很帥／美，你會嫁／娶她／給他嗎？
Yes?!?!?
(22)你希望自己生在貴族世家嗎？
Yup, before or even now?
(23)如果有一天，你突然收到一封信說，你曾曾曾曾祖父留了一筆不小的遺產給你，妳會..
WOW.....starting up my own business
(24)假如，你現任女友要結婚，結婚對象卻是你的眾多表兄弟的其中一人，你會？
Dump her!
(25)你覺得，你曾曾曾曾曾曾祖父母還活著嗎？
What a stupid question?
(26)人死可以復生嗎？
Soul?
(27)你覺得人死了是變天使還是變小鬼？
Go to heaven become angel
(28)你想變成死神去奪取人性命嗎？
No
(29)你喜歡死亡還是活著？
No idea
(30)假如你跟你阿嬤靈魂對調，你會？
Idiot question yeah!
(31)請偷偷爆料你母親的一件糗事？
One day, when we go to the temple, and there was a monk inside the temple, and the temple was upon the hill and the hill got a temple and there was a monk inside the temple, and the temple was upon the hill........
(32)你覺得你父親最白癡的一面是？
Its cute okay? stupid!
(33)你家是屬於小家庭、大家庭還是折衷家庭？
Middle i think
(34)老實說，你覺得你家是你的避風港嗎？
Yes, why nt

【　参，　請爆點名之人的料　】
(35)是那位寶貝點你／妳的？
Sharon
(36)他／她跟你／妳是什麼關係？
siblings
(37)你／妳們兩個認識多久了？
18 years
(38)他／她在哪天誕生的？
23 of oct
(39)他／她是哪一個星座？
Scorpio ?
(40)他／她最討厭什麼？
Face very thick!
(41)他／她最喜歡什麼？
Talk a lots
(42)他／她和你／妳共同的喜好是？
Swimming and sushi
(43)他／她有沒有喜歡的人？
YES! LOTs
(44)他／她有沒有可能會喜歡你／妳？
Why not? i love her
(45)他／她有什麼怪癖？
Er....like to shave the hair
(46)他／她做過最糗的事是？
Forget
(47)他／她曾經為了什麼而抓狂？
Er....too many
(48)他／她會因為什麼事而失態？
someone she admire! haha
(49)他／她最不為人知的秘密是？
Its secret which i will never tell... x.o.x.o Gossip GAL~

【　肆，　我出題目你來聯想　】
♥　本區域，題目沒說是什麼的話，那麼人事物三種答案皆可 = )
(50)說到慶典想到？
BBQ
(51)說到夢幻想到？
Princess
(52)說到顏色想到？
Pink
(53)說到睡想到誰？
Sharon
(54)說到吃想到誰？
Sharon
(55)說到美女想到？
Hui Xin
(56)看到帥哥想到？
Handsome o~
(57)看到小孩想到？
A and B
(58)誰？
Alvin and Belinda
(59)吃東西時會想到？
Sharon
(60)看到電視時會想到？
Snacks
(61)說到花心會想到誰？
BOY
(62)说到癡情會想到誰?
Er... Stupid boy
(63)看書的時候會想到？
EXAMS
(64)睡醒來時會想到誰？
dont know
(65)點你的這位寶貝會讓你想到？
BAD

【　伍，　偷嘗禁果十八限題　】
(66)請問，你有性幻想過嗎？
Har? what myself? or a guy?
(67)對象是?
np
(68)如果你跟你父母亂倫，你會？
IDIOT!
(69)你有偷偷愛慕過表堂親兄弟姊妹過嗎？
Never
(70)你有自慰過嗎？
WhaT?
(71)喜歡看愛情動作片嗎？
NOt really
(72)常做運動嗎？
No
(73)有跟男友／女友待在同一張床上純聊天過嗎？
Of course
(74)如果你看到你床上有一抹紅，第一想法是
Period visit
(75)假如，有一天你變成自己愛慕的人，你會對那句身體做甚麼事？
painting?
(76)你想狂吻自己的男友／女友嗎？
Yes, if i have
(77)喜歡法式熱吻嗎？
Er....once
(78)想過去酒店或PUB吊凱子／女人嗎？
Hehe....only go for drink
(79)喜歡小白臉嗎？
Go to hell
(80)自己看過最OVER?
girls on street with the straw which look like a dick
(81)喜歡看到冰淇淋卻不能吃的感覺嗎？
No, of course!
(82)到現在為止，你覺得夠18限嗎？
Yeah, quite
(83)你覺得，草地操場沙灘房間，哪個地方比較好？
Room
(84)老實說，你有沒有看帥哥或美女看到噴鼻血過？
Never....not that hua ci
【　陸，　無厘頭超瞎大亂配　】
♥　首先，請想十個寶貝，想到誰填誰 = )
1-Alvin
2-Belinda
3-Sharon
4-Chui Fei
5-Pauline
6-Evelyn
7-Cecilia
8-Lesly
9-AhSing
10-Eijing

♥　本大題問題開始，請往下繼續移動 = )
Ｑ：９和３誰的怪癖比較多？
Ａ：3
Ｑ：如果１和７在同一天先後向你告白，你會答應誰？
Ａ：1? hahahaha
Ｑ：你會不會考慮跟１０來個一夜情？
Ａ：Siao!
Ｑ：１ˋ５ˋ８約你明天同一個時間出去，你會如何選擇？
Ａ：8 bah? didn't see him v.long already!
Ｑ：６有沒有可能是同性戀？爲什麼？
Ａ：Nop? She is just so girly..
Ｑ：２做過最讓你腦殘的事是什麼？
Ａ：Her bad temper!!!
Ｑ：哪一首歌最能代表８現在的心情？
Ａ：No idea
Ｑ：你和９是在哪裡認識的呢？
Ａ：my cousin
Ｑ：你和１０認識多久了？
Ａ: Knew him through sharon and talk more in the library? haha
Ｑ：４和６有沒有可能變成一對？
Ａ: No, if yes also i will be their gf! wuahahaha
Ｑ：７是你的誰？是不可告人的關係嗎？
Ａ：My friend, just friends
Ｑ：你是不是最愛１？
Ａ：Yes, of course!
Ｑ：其實你暗戀３很久了對吧？
Ａ：hahaha....omg how do u know!
Ｑ：如果２讓５懷孕了，他們會怎麼處理？
Ａ: wuahahahaha......Tell me how u make it!
Ｑ：８是不是最貪吃的人？
Ａ：not really?
Ｑ：１～１０現在跟你求婚或是要你嫁給他，你會擇誰？
Ａ：Nobody!

【　柒，　芭樂報社之亂亂入　】
Ｑ：如果有一個女人突然跑到你家說，她懷孕了，你會？
Ａ：None of my business
Ｑ：如果有一天，你醒來發現你在陌生人的床上，你會？
Ａ：What the hell?
Ｑ：我愛黑澀會和模範棒棒堂，你比較喜歡哪一個？
Ａ：Blacky
Ｑ：你現在最想去的地方？為什麼？
Ａ：Kuching and KL!!! i want to travel alone!
Ｑ：都市和鄉村，你比較喜歡哪一個？為什麼？
A : City, shopping and get anythings i want to
Ｑ：比較喜歡台灣小吃還是外國料理？為什麼？
Ａ：Taiwan's food....wanna have a try!
Ｑ：如果現在你有一張機票，你會希望是去哪裡的？
Ａ：Adelaide find maggie or perth!
Ｑ：最近在玩哪一款線上遊戲？單機遊戲呢？
Ａ：Er....dont know whats the name!
Ｑ：撒旦一定要在地獄不能在天堂嗎？
Ａ：Ask GOD
Ｑ：為什麼是男是女不能自己選擇？
Ａ：LOL? then there will be a unstabled world!
Ｑ：為什麼年齡一定要從１歲開始？
Ａ：Ask GOD
Ｑ：如果你很想上廁所，可是只有兩張衛生紙可用，你會？
Ａ：I can for peeing
Ｑ：如果路人跟你說，你內褲穿在外面，你會？
Ａ: Impossible ok?
Ｑ：你年齡只有１８歲，可是路人卻叫你阿姨／叔叔，你會？
Ａ：NEver answer, cause i am not auntie or uncle
Ｑ：你會選擇愛還是被愛？為什麼？
Ａ：been loved, feel better?

【　捌，　務必點名之中獎篇　】
♥　第一個步驟，請先想好你要點的人１５名。
♥　第二個步驟，請填下那１５人的名字。
Chui Fei
Pauline
Evelyn
Eijing
Singsing
Girly
Stepstep
Victor
Cecilia
Kathy
Jacqueline
Brian

My Life in Sibu

LoL....My life in Sibu now? itis a bit weird???
Just want to share somethings about my current life in Sibu~
I am not really like it actually, may be i am too free when i was in Newcastle
Got it? and the life in NEwcastle really relax man!!!

Now, everyday i need to wake up at 6 something and go to downstair to help my mum
to raise the clothes.... Well, may be you can say i can choose i want to do it or not to do it! I will choose, i want to do it! I know my mum is tired as well...
Even though i feel tired wake up in this early morning and raised the clothes!
But still i choose to do it, may be i can say just want to stop my mum nagging!
haha

After that, i need to go to office and doing some account or some cash sales
While also help dad to make the trading socket, wow, its really killing me u know
now my hand still feel pain....
Then, i will go swim~ i Love swimming, i feel so free inside the water and i love it
After swim, my dad will ask me to do the trading socket again! Gosh, i really feel terrible sometime!

And during the afternoon, i need to go to shop again! And the sun is really boiling!
While my mum want to renovate her house and she always busy with her staff nowaday
Well, i really feel lazy and unfair sometime, but i know i shouldn't feel that way
cause i must help her!

Anyways, i just hope i got time during night time
Cause fei is leaving to KL very soon, i hope i can spend more time together with her
Sigh...but i am always busy with my staff and i cant go away with it!
WHY!!!! WHY!!! WHY!!!
I NEED MORE TIME..................
Why always want to tie me up in somethings! Although not physcally
but my mental was like been tied up without freedom!
I just want to spend my time with some of my friends..........

God.....
I miss Newcastle, Really.....

Feel sleepy now actually keep on
looking at the computer screen!
need to find out the debtors and company @_@

Taggings..............

Since i have been tagged
So i am trying to figure it out~
And i have been in the office now LOL~
Wei,,,respect okay? This is my job (laugh)

Well....my work is sitting inside the office and look at the office
Bleh bleh~


1.被點到必填，不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷。
2.請老實的回答每一個問題。
3.不行擅自塗改題目。
4.寫完請點8位朋友，不可不點。
5.點完後請通知那8位小朋友他被點到了。
-Pauline
-Evelyn
-Kathy
-Victor
-Brian
-Annie
-Ah sing
-Girly

。。。。個 人 題 - 10 題。。。。
01 你叫什么：Jasmine
02 你的綽號：sansan / nini
03 你的血型：O type
04 你的星座：Aquaries
05 你是男還是女：Definitly GAL
06 你幾歲：21
07 你住哪裡：Sibu now
08 你現在的學校 : Northumbria Uni
09 你有沒有手機 : Yes, Of cOurse!!!
10 承上，那是多少：What is this? Don't understand

。。。。朋 友 題 - １０ 題。。。。
11 你最要好的朋友（限１個）: Beatrice? Cecilia? evelyn? Pauline?
12 你最討厭的人（限１個）：Myself?
13 你最正的女性朋友（限１個）：Friends around me are all Leng Luis Okay.....
14 你最帥的男性朋友（限１個）：Hmmm....Jesus
15 什麼樣的女生你最討厭：Tell Lie and Proud
16 什麼樣的男生你最討厭：Playful and tell lie
17 你的好朋友有誰（不限）：Many...
18 你經常和哪位朋友出去：In Sibu, Fui and CC , IN UK, Eve,Eijing, Eiyen, Victor, Carter..... Both place (Pauline) hahaha
19 你身邊最憨的朋友（限１個，不能自己）: What is that mean?
20 你身邊最可愛的朋友（限１個）: Ho.....all are so cute ~ how to sepcify = ="

。。。。 情 題 - １５ 題。。。。
21 你有沒有喜歡的人： No
23 如果没有，你希望什麼時候有另一半: Anytime when i am well prepared X.X
24 到目前為止，你跟多少人告白過：Erm....No~
25 到目前為止，你被多少人告白過：Er.....4 or 5?
26 到目前為止，你交過多少個男／女朋有: 3 as in relationship
27 你現在有另一半 ：No
28 你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你會怎樣：Walao? Impossible = ="
29 你初戀情人突然跟你告白你會接受嗎 ：I will ask him GO DIE 1st
30 你為什麼會喜歡你現在喜歡的人：None....
31 你和另一半牽手過嗎：This is just CRAPS, Of course!
32 你的另一半抱或親過嗎: Yes..... = ="
33 你跟異性牽手過嗎：YES...
34 是誰，你們什麼關係：Er....too many~ When playing games? is this included? LOL
35 現在有人在追你嗎：I think got 1? but i dont know

。。。。混 合 題 - １０ 題。。。。
36 如果有天，好朋友離你而去，你會怎樣：What kind of Leaving? Die? Go Study? Or just leave without reason?
37 如果有天，好朋友背叛你，你會：Forgive her!
38 如果有天，好朋友對你喜新厭舊了: This wont be happening, cos i am always fresh for every friends ^-^
39 如果你很受不了你的父母，你會離家出走嗎：No...I love them!
40 你上課認真嗎 : Er....Sleeping = =" But i am try to concern okay!
41 你功課好不好：Not really...
42 你开电腦都在幹麻:Surfing on net, playing games, chit chating, blogging
43 你的即时通有多少个同性: Many
44 你的即時通裡有多少個異性：Many

。。。。兇 手 題 - 1 0 題。。。。
45 傳給你這份問卷的人是誰：JacQ
46 这個人對你好不好：V.Long didn't contact already =x
47 這個人是你的誰：Childhood neighbour?
48 你有喜歡過這個人嗎：Yes, we use to be friends when we are young
49 你們認識多久了：Er....V.Long =x
50 這個人是怎樣的人：No idea @_@
51 這個人正／帥嗎：She is cute kakaka~
52 這個人跟你有沒有在一起过：No...Stupid question
53 萬一你喜歡這個人，你會怎麼办: Stupid question. Not

。。。。 聯 想 題 - １０ 題。。。。
56 說到正妹你會想到誰：Huh....Too many
57 說到帥哥你會想到誰：Dont know( Dont bother)
58 說到憨你會想到誰：Dont know what is this
59 說到痴你會想到誰：er....idiot = ="
60 說到暗戀你會想到誰：Admirer?
61 說到出去玩你會想到誰：Pauline
62 說到聰明鬼你會想到誰：Myself hahaha
63 說到傻子你會想到誰: Guys
64 說到笑點低你會想到誰：Pauline
65 說到愛笑你會想到誰 : Myself

。。。。學 校 題 - 1 1 題。。。。
66 你的班導是誰: Francis Ferrari
67 你的座位是第幾排第幾個：Random seat
68 你最喜歡的老師是誰：My foundation business lecturer (Gary)
70 你的英文好嗎：Not bad
71 你的體育好嗎：No
72 你的数学好么：Idiot in maths but still can pass in exam LOL~　
73 你喜不喜歡你的校長：I dont know who is the principle? haha...may be should called them chairman or director somethings?
74 你的學校好看嗎：Yeah for the business and law new building
75 你的班級是：Business management course
76 你的班級在幾樓：Er.....hard to explain

while in Sibu....

Well.........Really so long didn't update my blog since last one
I am currently in Sibu and doing nothing~
Haha....actually i am busy with my life u know! Busy with the household =_=
Sigh, i am so full now and feel a bit sleepy!
Already back but havent been out with any of my friends yet!
cause i don't feel wanna find them! Gosh, they always want me to take them to anyways
I hate that! Like, i myself nothing to do and want to find them and i need to fetch them and what? This is what i myself find that, I hate it okay man!

Sien dao...... why friends always like this

u come and take me la........

why always i am the one who driving i am the one who take u out!

I really hate that! I rather stay at home!

Really hate...... sigh

Don't know how to explain! Its really mess in mind now
You yourself wanna do ur staff and u ask me to find u! walao, ur staff le, not mine!!! u dont find me still ask me find u! i really speechless liao

Better dont think about it! Stupid one~

Arhhh......HAihzzzzzz Is this wat Friendship called?
ITIS???

Anyways, i just dont want to go out!
I wan stay at home!

So, P fast back lo, we go out together!
hahaha

Sien dao me, hot dao me

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
God, where are u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am messsssssssssssssssssssssssss

My Lifes................

My life now just full with CRAPSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Gosh.....i really can't stand, can't bear for it anymore!
Everyday when i wake up, turn on my computer, and surfing on net!
I am gonna get mad with this LIFE!

I haTe thisssssssss
I want to go out but i dont know where to go!
I feel Bored......And i have no one to talk with! LOL.......
Really stupid = ="
I am looking forward what to do NEXT but i found NOTHING~

Well, i am really stuck in this situation
seems like everyone is busy with their exams
busy with their works or life
but me? busy with CRAPS.......

After packing luggage, and packing again and again!
I was Like WHAT THE HELL i gonna do for the next?
LOL........ I Have no idea~
Go for Shopping? I hope i dont spend again on shopping!
Sigh~ And then, i don't know what i should do
Feel like going to the beach~ Hmmmm

Pauline, i am great that u get good result in Ur IELTS !
CONGRATULATION!!! Well Done girl ^^

I just feel bored with my current situation
haha......
so, i have no reaction just now~
but still feel happy for u ^^
hope u dont mind with my reaction just now

love u love u love u
Muaksss.......

Finally.............

Hmmm.....finally, i am back to home now! My second home which is in Newcastle!
hahaha...Well, have been to Paris last few days! really exhauted, nearly forget the feelings of traveling, and its come back again! walk, walk, walk and walkkkkkkkk
my gosh~~~~ Wat mean by traveling actually? TRAVEL, Enjoy! Relax! have fun! play! delicious foods! nice views! but why my travel is full with walking and walking!
i really hate that sometime!

Well, here start my long stories in Paris. I bet this really will be a very long stories if u wish to stay? LOL......
Going on to the plane, i was chit-chating with Racheal for a moment then i started fall asleep. And i had sleep for quite long i guess, cause when i wake up, its announced started to landing! LOL.... well, this is good for me! i hate shaking when on the plane, so i rather sleep for the whole journey!
Then, after reach there, we started to walk! the airport is very big and far to reach to the train station! we like walking for half an hour after reaching the train station (RER) then we bought our ticket for 39.9 euro for 4 days! and its an unlimited pass......Then we follow the map and find our hostel.

Their train station and metro is really well developed. Most of them were travel around by metro as it is really convenient. You can reach everywhere by metro just need to suit in the station only! I am staying in ducks 3 hostel, its really a stupid choice to stay in the hostel! as it was a bagpack hostel so there are quite lots of people who stay there. We need to share a dorm with right peoples, this make me think about NS! gosh.....its really horrible! how can i make this decision. Traveling , a comfortable bed! a good environment! a better quality of staying place! its just totally difference.....The bathroom and toilets is shared and can only stand one people inside! Well, i try to adopt to the living style there.
There was really noisy as its a bar outside and they used to drink until midnight!

Anyways, its really horrible for me in the first day!
After that, we bath and going out to find some food for dinner!
Also meet one of the friend there. Its chinese food... but had pay for 20+ euro = ="
Dont know they put wat gold inside need so exp!
Then, we go to a lots of place, effiel tower, Lv, Chanel, Gucci, Celine stores
I am planing to buy an LV purse and it cost me 400 euro
But at the end, i choose not to buy it! cause the amount is really big for me
and i don feel wanna spend like that on the purse, unless i earn the money myself and i willing to spend my own money on it! But my friend bought a lot! really feel itchy la and nearly bought and she keep on pushing me to buy it if not i will regret but i am thinking if i buy it may be i will regret 1st! = ="

Well.........but still i spend a lots in the Disney Walt Store! lols
but just bought for S,P and AB! and i have nothing for myself
cause dont know wat to buy! I still leave lots money i think and i am trying to spend it again! haha........but i still dont know wat to buy for myself
so i bought some clothes for mum and S, as the sales girl said that is quite fashionable in Paris and you know that Paris is always fashionable!
So i decided to bought some clothes in the shop

Then, say bye bye to Paris
Cause i wanna go home to sleep and eat! and i am not feeling well now
get FlU........ really stupid trip!
cause not drink enough water and nose keep bleeding
need more rest now and drink more water! hope i can recover soon!

Rest now
try to upload some pic when u got it!

^^

Flying to Paris...

I am flying to Paris tomorrow..... haha
actually i am not that fancy of flying to Paris due to some reason,
make me feel a bit desperate! However, i am a bit nervous? excited? worry?
i don't know what my feeling now, just feel so worry i think
cause i just realise that French don't speak English.....ooh gosh
i hope my journey will be fine although i don't speak French!

And you know what, i just feel Scared, and i never know that how brave i have make
this decision to travel alone with one of my friend? oh my....
may be its a bit late to think about this! But this is my first time to travel alone
to a difference country and languages. Actually a bit nervous now.
I thought i can settle everything when i am there! i hope so....

However, i am really nervous now! Have finished pack my luggage but still worry that is there any important things need to bring together.....or i am just too kampung?
As my friend just throw some shirt into the luggage only = ="
Well......

Will be back after 4 days! hope everything will be fine and i pray that God will always be with me so i don't feel afraid at all! Thank you Lord!

Really hope that i would have a really fun trip!

I am quite excited cause wanna back home soon......

tatar........watching series now~

To be continue after i back from Paris ^-^

The day after my exams!

Today seems like very long for me! As i have nothing to do after my exams and assignment!!! Suddenly, i feel the day was so long....
When i got assignment and exams, i always feel that 24 hours is not enough for me
and i need more time in a day!!! i don't know why i always panic about that
Even, i think that sleeping is wasting time and why human need to sleep???
LOL? am i look funny or crazy of my work??? i think i gonna mad when i am in my work!
Well, after hand in my assignment and finish my exams~

I do nothing at home, lolsss~ I wash some of my clothing and continue to watch series!
My god, can u imaging that i watch a 30 episode of series in 3 days??? How pro am i!
U need to salute to me, as i break my record! hahaha.....
After that, i cooked some mee hung and dung hung....anyways, its really taste nice~

After bath, we going to fellowship~
Today topic is about appreciating, affirming, abundant and forgot what was the last one, grateful or something else.......
Anyways, this make me recall back my childhood. Although my childhood is quite happy compare to others but still my parent hurt me when i was young.
Even i can't give up at that time and always try to think negatively!
And i dont know why they want to treat me like that. I think they are so cruel to treat me like that! However, i dont know, i feel kinda mess after this topic!
And i dont know wat should i do and wat should i say!
Although i have let it go, i have forgive but i feel nothing in my heart!
Like, its gone very far from me...My parents? Are they still beside me?
Did they ever think about how do i feel and wat do i care......

I don't know! However, i still love my dad, and mum! what i remember was how dad always love me, how he support me when i was down. How he treat me when i get beat! But mom........ i know how she love me as always let me eat something nice and she dont even eat it cause she want to give to us......
Suddenly, i think i need to have a good chat with them
i want to let them to know what i am thinking but not hide it inside my heart!
God, please give me strength to do so! i hope i can do it when i was back
God, please let me step out the first step!

i dont wanna miss the time! God please Lead me
tell me how to do....to appreciate and say thank you to them
face to face and say i love them!

Really hope that i can do that
hope that i am not the little girl who always being worried by parent
cause i am an adult now!

Feel so mess in my heart but dont know how to express it
may be wanna have some foods so i will feel happy!

X.X

BAD Day

Today, just finish my second paper!!!
I was awake at 4 something and i have a stupid dream!
I guess i miss mummy already,thats why always make me dream about that
Sigh......
After wake up, i quickly read my notes as i sleep very early nowadays!
i dont know why....feel really sleepy and tired!
dont know its tired of body or mental @_@

Anyways, i just do my revision until 7 and sharon wake up,
so i cooked some mee with bek ting yok which leave yesterday
yummy yummy....but i feel so full cause of the soup
and i dont like lor...feel wan vomit cause a bit sticky sticky already = ="

Then, i went to library to print some notes as this is open book exam
so i can bring some notes and book inside! Well...
the paper is terrible....i tot i can do it with my notes! but i cant
Dam horrible....there is 100% totally and i just do the 3 question!
oh my...cause we use Excel to do it actually, due to the lack of computers,
we need to write it ourself! wAlao, who know how to write ah, BRIAN PARKER never
teach us how to write and count the fomular!!! We use EXCEL okay
i think its really unfair to ask us to do like this!!!

I feel so despair of myself! I think i gonna fail in this subject!
YEt i also din't finish my question as i don have enough time to do it!
And i feel very uncomfortable and keep on farting LOL?
Well....actually not farting is sounds from stomach i guess
cause i am very hungry and i for exam without lunch! gosh......
When i am waiting for the bus, i feel so upset, why why
I nearly cry that time but i call sharon and talk to her
Luckily she give me a warm warm encourage, but i feel a bit weird....lol
Cause she will scold me at other time then i hang up and sit on the bus
Although i feel wanna cry but i keep on telling myself not to cry
cause i know its useless for crying!

Wanna do really good for the next exam
i hope i can do it well
i hope i can answer the question !!!

Dear Lord, please help me
please stay besides me to let me feel calm!

no foods again =x
Hungry!

Wow???

Eh kian lor.......
seems like i had miss a lots of things with you guys
Also, i don't think there is anyone still reading my blogs?
HAHA...well, i don't know! This few days really busy busy and busy
Enjoyed Pauline's birthday which fill with lots of foods? haha
Well, i didn't get any pictures, but if u want to see the pictures, may be you can link to Sharon or Pauline's blogs, so you can see from there.

Have dinner on 16th May with friends, but i really don't like!!!
I hate people `dong shou dong jiao` to me! DAM
i am not ur who dont simply touch me or puts ur hand on me
TAKE AWAY UR PIG's hand.......i really hate that! i just feel very negative feelings after that and i dont know why!
May be just hate boys do that to me!!! feel uncomfortable.....
By the way! i love to eat `Zhang yu shao` really nice morrrrrrrrr
But had waste my time for revision! = ="

Then,i can only do my revision on the next day after pizza hut!
Pizza hut really cant satisfied my stomach la......i miss kfc now
LOL.....Last night doing my international business environment revision until 3
and go to bed,wake up at half pass 5 and go to bath!
Then doing my revision again until 6.50, then i quickly tidy up and went out to
wait for the bus! Its really windy....i am very nervous and worry cause i dont know
my exam room! LOL? funny right? and my exam start at half pass nine!
I keep praying for God that i can find my room and doing good in my exam
meanwhile, i still reading the notes that i had prepared last night

After found my exam room, i feel really sleepy and tired!
I tried to make myself awake!
Luckily, i had finished my 1st paper!
Tomorrow i had my 2nd paper, and i have no idea wat stupid things is that
SOLVING business problems my goshhhhhhhhhhhhhh
dont know wat to do now.......BLANK!!!!

LOL...si carter so stupid le him
always kidding but never go through his brain
i am so mind sometime but still i can only laugh = ="
so malu!!!

i also dont know wat i am writing now
stress,stress,stress
noisy dam!
wanna go back home now! wat stupid library! so noisy! its queit erea eh????
DAM it! shut up la!
END~

The Last Day?!?!

Hurray!!!!!!!!
It's the last day for my assignment already!!!
Feel kinda relax after finished it but not totally!
As fighting with my assignment for few days
really exhausted now, due to lack of sleep, cause always been awake
in the morning and prepared to rushing my assignment again
wondering, when can i stop this kind of life?
If i continue my life like this i will fancy of sleeping
haha.......dont feel wanna wake up after that!

Well....i can't relax now
after hand in my assignment tomorrow,
i need to prepared for my exam already
as my exam have start next week! oh my god~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
dont know how to explain my feelings now
just a brief, short, fast bloggy to update

its 4.18 am now
sleepy actually but brain is worrying my assignment
.........

B
Y
E

I am not in emotion.......

Well....Today is kinda fine
and mummy is here for 3rd days.....actually just 2 days
All i want to say is, we are really not a family! LOL?

I don't know why someone always get jealous so easily?
Cause she is still young? still immature? still waT?
Well, i accepted the reason! cause i know....She is just immature
and under protecting always as she always want someone to be with her
I tot i can really love her like my sister, but its totally hard
but still i love her........

Why do ppl always complaining about others and never look at themselves?
Is this just usual in our life? No......
if i am going to complain someone i will think about whether if i am
in that way or wat!!! I won't blaming something simply okay!
Why u always want to debate so much when ppl complaining about u?
At the end u also don't want to admit... And again debate turn up
LOL......i trying to be patient trying to dont say so much
trying to shut my mouth up, trying to follow ur style as i love you like my sis
As i love u as a family in this house

i learn to let go.......
i learn to be patient, learn to forgive, learn to say nevermind!
I am just trying so hard to do so, and praying for god that
please let go my feelings!

And why why why everytime you like to make ur own decision without
asking others? LOL......
may be this is just ur style and can never be changed!
Well.....at the end? i am still trying to accept?
or else.....wat can i do, i don feel wanna see someone
crying and come and talk to me or wanna ask for attention

Anyways......JUST LET IT GO~

Lord,dear lord please forgive me
forgive my selfishness!

Thanks lord!

I am totally mad!!!

I am totally mad, yes i am!!!
I don't know why i am mad, what's the point of mad...
And may be nobody knows as well!

I feel so bad now, since yesterday, when sharon told me something
i started feel very angry? yeap, its the right adjective! After that, i feel so angry
and nothing can calm myself down! i also don't know why.
May be i am too mind of it or u can say i am small gas!

Really, i feel so bad and i feel no life is no more colorful!
The colorful life is not more for me. I had lost my confidence.
I am thinking i am fat and ugly and useless and stupid and nobody likes and all bads
i feel very bad! i feel like i am the girl 5 years ago...
I build my confidence wall for 5 years and he just throw a bom to destroyed it
It's really bad, i don't know why i am sad angry mad...

i just want to quit all the entertainment outside the door,
quit all gathering, quit all the meeting and meeting friends,
quit going out beside shop in supermarket and library!

NOW, I　JUST WANT TO SAY LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
DON'T COME TO BOTHER MY LIFE AGAIN! I JUST WANT TO STAY INSIDE MY CORNER NOW!

There's a long long journey~

Had been very long didn't update any of my blogs!!!
Well...had been very busy with my assignment and my life nowadays...
Or may be it just an excuses? Well...i am really lazy =x
haha.....

I don't know what should i shared now cause there are too much things
to share......
Really ...i want to thanks God that let me know CC and Sam.... really
feel surprised i said SAM ??? well.... he is my ex? or just a stranger that
past by my life? Uhh...anyways, just forget it, he is not that importance anymore!
What i want to say at the first, i really feel that he hurt me so much
but now i want to say thank you to him cause he hurt me so much!
I am totally life in the blessed of Jesus now!!! Thanks Lord that i had go back to
your kingdom, i don't want to be lost again!
I am totally awake now!!! As i know i shouldn't be together with him
but still i don't believe and i do whatever i want to do and at the end its hurt
i need to taste the feelings and accept the sentences as this is my responsibility
cause i choose this way! NOW~
NO MORE......i want to have choose a very right one but not just simply?
or i can say whatever? lols......

Have no idea, but what i had learn was don't be silly anymore
thanks god to give me this lesson......
God is really amazing in my life!

Dam idiot Sharon....

See my topics?
I am just totally speechless with you~
And yet i don't feel wanna to argue with you!
Well.......
What i want to say is i do really have STRESS okay!
I have lots pressure as well!!!
Don't always criticised on my hardwork and yet you think you the only one
who feel stress......

Sometimes, when i really feel stress, when i hope to find someone to cry to,
when i don't know how to express my stress and i will never tell you
as you know your style......Will you have stress?
Just a short sentence you make the environment Cool~

I do feel headache as well and until when you can edit your `proud`?
I just bear with it as we are family so i accepted.
I do feel weak but i really is there still someone can i talk to
or i just can press it inside myself...
I Doubt nobody can understand what is my stress!!
When feel stress doesn't mean that you need to show or tell that you are
stress, just you own can feel it....
For everyone is the same i guess!
But i do feel relief when Si yieng chat with me just now~
I feel better now but still headache!

Sigh........i really don't know how to say
i feel stressful! Like carry a big stone on me or its worry?
I have no Idea~

After Hibernating!!!

After hibernating i am awaken now!!! lols......
actually i don't know how many times when i am trying to write it
and i am just blank?!?!? and i am lazy may be write it next time
until now,its after 2 months? gosh.....

Yet i really have lot things to share!!!
Okay, i am trying to share somethings that inside my heart that
i still don't have chance to share with anybody!
Yesterday when i am singing during worship suddenly, my ex appear in my mind
and i feel very sad my tears nearly rolling down!
Immediately, i changed my focus on the people who was leading us
just then my tears was spin in my eyepit.
It was just a stranged memories for me and also very familiar instead.

Now, i don't know what i am writing and i am wondering
is this what i am going to express? Can u understand what i am talking about
Dear me....... i have lost!
Although i am lost in here but i have make some goals for myself!!!
1st - i want to have a boyfriend that can spend his whole life together with me.
And i want to really make sure that he can just then i will have a bf! haha
2nd - i want have good time management and started concern on my assignment
and studies now!!!
3rd - i am trying my best to be a disciple !!!
4th - i want to find out the balancing in my life!!!

Please pray for me!!!
I must do it! this is compulsory for me !
Gambateh!!!

Love............................................

Depraved???

Had been so long didn't update my blogs! cause been so depraved during the holidays!
What i can say is....laziness!
Why i named is with depraved cause i really feel i am!
Wake up,surfing on da net, eat,toilets and no more!
my God.....what am i doing during this long holidays? The answer is
Nothing! claps claps...wat a good answer~ Bravo!
lol........i am getting crazy with myself between
I am so surprised that as one of my ex classmate had married already!
Gosh...may because of the pregnancy!
the culture in Sibu getting degenerate...i realised!
sigh~ speechless
Just hope they will have a happy life

well, yesterday chatting with beatrice just found that she got a new boyfriend.
I am happy for her but also sad for myself!
I am sad not because i didn't got boyfirend and she did! i do mention this as someone had just told me this way when i ask them why! gosh
really feel so low minded! i am sad because she is getting far apart from me
Even now she was far away from me but i just feel a bit sad
no matter how i really hope that she got a nice boyfirend!

Umm... praised the lord!
Nowadays, always listen to the songs,its really nice i love it
besides i want to call CC but she never send me a msg as she promised me to
send me a msg! too bad
next week gonna start sch already! hope everything is fine!