Sunday 29 August 2010

复杂

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静静的思考着
为什么会这样,
累了
慌了
破了
不知道还该怎么看待
也许自私
也许爱
也许已经不可自拔
太多的也许,也已经没有意义

已经习惯了总是在你的世界里
总是习惯,
被你小心翼翼的捧在手里,珍惜,爱护着
从来不知道,
当有一天,你不在这般的对待我
会怎么样
~

这一天,总会来临
无理取闹
荷尔蒙变化
体内的生理激素不断地升温
对着你发脾气
抱怨着
心里的不愉快,不满
因为,再也没有人可以了解我

害怕失去你
你的疼爱
你的关心
你的担心

天空,就像黑云不断地集中,集中
变成一片乌云
突然,滴滴答答
不知是雨水还是了泪水模糊了双眼
好希望就这样看不清这世界
只用想象它的美好~

烂透了!

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超级烂透了的心情!
烂死了。。。最近好像什么事情都不顺~
闲去,好想大哭一场,但是,这是懦弱的表现!

难道你就这么容易被这一点点事情打败吗?
这就太不像话了
想当初,那么胆小怕死的你
你自己一个人去到英国,人生地不熟的地方时
你是怎么让自己活出来的?
难道这些鸡毛蒜头小事,就可以批评到你?惹到你吗?
不想再有懦弱
无谓的朋友算什么?
懂你的朋友还剩几个?
为什么我总是为了朋友而活?
对别人来说,朋友不算什么
但,对我来说~朋友就像家人
是一辈子的事
虽说朋友会背叛,可以再交
但是,对我却不是这样

朋友让你的生活充满彩色
陪你一起笑过,一起哭过
这些都是很美好的回忆
朋友接受你的坏习惯,
虽然家庭背景不同,
还是把你当家人一样的感情
你怎么舍弃?说丢就丢?
对不起,我不是这样的人
友情对我来说,是何等的美好
何等的纯洁和至高无上
只有不懂得对待朋友的人才是愚蠢的!
所以,请不要再对我说,朋友无用,只会背叛你,让你伤心难过!

Friday 27 August 2010

What a Boring Day

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It's too much boring fill into my life recently!
Well, want to stay at home as i am going to uk soon, it's an excuses for being lazy!
LoL.... I know it, but i just couldn't adjusted my time back!
Use to sleep late and wake up late, cause i just want to have more sleep larrrrr~
Have been staying at home this few days,
cause i am lazy to go out, well~ this is really a good time for me to become white
hahahaha..........
Actually, have been date by a guy!
He approach me long time ago, yet i couldn't remember how long itis~
as just sometime, sometime + sometime!
Cause, 1st he just approach me and told me that, he want me to work for him
LoL....how ridiculous~

It's doesn't matter, cause i didn't keep it in mind~ so i just ignored it!
Then, second time~ i asked, why you want to hire me??? He said, i believe u can be a really
good worker or something! I asked again, how do you know and you don't even know who am i?
LoL....cause he just add me from facebook..... Phewwww
Then he said, i just knew from your facebook profile!
Oh dear....This is our conversation

Ends up with, i don't even know who you are!
but meet him before at terminal, as sibu is so small! lols
then i have no idea what to talk about, yet he said....no wonder, u look so familiar for me
just now = ="""" what the heck, he didn't even say hi to me when he turn his head back twice
LOL..............
OKay, what next? i have no idea now~

Today is really boring for me!
boring, mushroom coming out soon~
sigh sigh sigh!

Wednesday 25 August 2010

漫画天

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没什么特别~
唯独漫画陪我消磨时间
帮忙煮了一锅粥,可是爸爸不喜欢。。。因为我把料全都倒进去!
辛苦妈妈了,每天还考虑到爸爸及家人的喜好~
才知道,原来做家庭主妇也不是那么容易的!
哈哈哈。。。还有没有人得愿望是当家庭主妇啊?
朋友,可以相遇,相知,就是一种缘分
我珍惜我的朋友,也许是我自己防备心太重了
因为,我会选择朋友,这样不好
也许,害怕再被友情伤害了吧。。。爱情也一样~
自己说自己的心是很脆弱的,但是,没有试过不知道!
我只想珍惜现在所拥有的````
记得,我说过,我不是个博爱的人吧
因为我很专一!哈哈哈
被你的过分爱护,我很懊恼
可是,被你忽略,我也很不爽!
但是,我也没有权利让你这么做
也许,我早在你心里已经没有任何的地位。。。
人类,都是自私的
你说,要保持距离,要学会习惯
但是,你考虑过别人的感受吗?
说走就走,头也不回的离开。。。现在为什么还要回来?
不如干脆点,放开手
我已经厌倦了这一切的假惺惺

对我来说,已经没有任何的留念,
没有任何的价值,因为永远再也回不到过去了!就这样随风飘走,或许~我们都会快乐一些~

Tuesday 24 August 2010

安静的夜

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安静的夜里,夜晚朦胧。。。。。
月亮有一半被乌云遮住了~
其实,是不愿意的,因为害怕从想象的场景变成真实的
然而~不必想象中的好

静静地凝视着
仿佛有好多话想说,但是,却没人开口。。。
只得静静地继续坐着
不知道到底该怎么办~

其实,我要的很简单
只是信任和坦白

在爱情里,没有谁对谁错
因为彼此爱得太深,伤的越深!

我要的你给不了~
你要的我给不起,


Monday 23 August 2010

不明白~

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不明白,为什么有些人可以爱得那么快?
分手了,不怕!再找。。。。。真的有那么多合适的人可以在一起吗?
真的不懂,你所谓的爱,到底。。。。到底。。。。值多少钱?

从分手那天起,,我就要负责起自己的寂寞,因为我不是个博爱的人~
我不能分享我的爱。。。我会继续的等,等到一个我觉得最最理想的人出现。。。
爱情游戏,我累了~不想再去触碰那伤口!
我们真的好陌生,陌生得我快不记得你了。。。
每当在一起时,血液沸腾~好想把心掏出来给你,但是,我知道这样做很傻
到后来,要的不是这样子!所以,我要学会,不把心掏出来。。。。学会埋起来

虽然,自己一个人走有些孤独~
但是,我相信神会为我安排的,而且是最好的!


Sunday 22 August 2010

Relax afternoon

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It's has been so long, i didn't sitting down in front of my lappy, listen to the music and quite nor relax down myself to think something or write something inside my blogs.
Cause have been really busy with my life....Gathering, outing, working, blablabla~
I just don't like too much matter that crush into my life and make me busy!
Love listen to my favourite songs and enjoying! keke...........

What a meaningful summer holidays for me!
There are too much stories, too much fun between me, my families and friends!
As i really don't like being bothering by Love! hahaha...cause i am get use to be single =)
Although sometime still feel like wanted to have a partner so much, but may be still not the time yet! so i am still waiting so patiently .......haha

Well, Sibu is flooding! There are so much traffic jammed !
So i think stay at home is better~ hahaha....Like what i am doing now~
Listening to songs, blogging~
I am going into second year which is really exciting me so much!
Thanks Lord to listen to me also hear my pray! appreciate muchieee...
There so much things happen in this few months, my lappy lost and i got a new lappy
daddy told me that he always fullfill our needs, because he know the feelings when he ask for something, but he couldn't get it!
I am so touch with it.... Thanks daddy for loving us so much, but this will spoiled us as well
I still appreciate much much! Have been so long, i nearly forget the feeling of appreciate!
I only remember to enjoy myself, this is really selfish !!!

Oh yah! feel like getting a dog so much after playing with claire and adik! hahaha
I am searching golden retriever , golden labralador or mini poodle....
but too bad i can't have them now, cause nobody take care of them!
May be when i back from UK la...Sigh =(