I am totally mad!!!

I am totally mad, yes i am!!!
I don't know why i am mad, what's the point of mad...
And may be nobody knows as well!

I feel so bad now, since yesterday, when sharon told me something
i started feel very angry? yeap, its the right adjective! After that, i feel so angry
and nothing can calm myself down! i also don't know why.
May be i am too mind of it or u can say i am small gas!

Really, i feel so bad and i feel no life is no more colorful!
The colorful life is not more for me. I had lost my confidence.
I am thinking i am fat and ugly and useless and stupid and nobody likes and all bads
i feel very bad! i feel like i am the girl 5 years ago...
I build my confidence wall for 5 years and he just throw a bom to destroyed it
It's really bad, i don't know why i am sad angry mad...

i just want to quit all the entertainment outside the door,
quit all gathering, quit all the meeting and meeting friends,
quit going out beside shop in supermarket and library!

NOW, I　JUST WANT TO SAY LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
DON'T COME TO BOTHER MY LIFE AGAIN! I JUST WANT TO STAY INSIDE MY CORNER NOW!

There's a long long journey~

Had been very long didn't update any of my blogs!!!
Well...had been very busy with my assignment and my life nowadays...
Or may be it just an excuses? Well...i am really lazy =x
haha.....

I don't know what should i shared now cause there are too much things
to share......
Really ...i want to thanks God that let me know CC and Sam.... really
feel surprised i said SAM ??? well.... he is my ex? or just a stranger that
past by my life? Uhh...anyways, just forget it, he is not that importance anymore!
What i want to say at the first, i really feel that he hurt me so much
but now i want to say thank you to him cause he hurt me so much!
I am totally life in the blessed of Jesus now!!! Thanks Lord that i had go back to
your kingdom, i don't want to be lost again!
I am totally awake now!!! As i know i shouldn't be together with him
but still i don't believe and i do whatever i want to do and at the end its hurt
i need to taste the feelings and accept the sentences as this is my responsibility
cause i choose this way! NOW~
NO MORE......i want to have choose a very right one but not just simply?
or i can say whatever? lols......

Have no idea, but what i had learn was don't be silly anymore
thanks god to give me this lesson......
God is really amazing in my life!