Thursday 28 October 2010

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I have no idea what Title should i called it~
Let it just be a none-title Title
Have been very enjoying this few days
Assignment havent really release yet, so i have plenty of time actually
Besides, lecture and seminar........the other time of my life was surfing on net
It's sounds mad, i have spend like average 12 or more hours per day on my laptop
hahaha

Winter is coming soon, this really block me for going out
i hate it's so cold outside =)
I rather just stay at home!
Nothing much to update about me

I just hope there is some changes in my life,
but i have no motivation to do it all~
sigh, i have no idea what am i going to do next

Feel like do some shooting of the view which i don't really notice in Newcastle
Miss yan so much, still remember how sweet she is
Today, i am quite down actually, and i told her i am not in mood
and i told her what i really think about,
actually, you think you are the one who can talk to me
but what i found was, the limitation of our topics
Funny............ yet i am less interest in it
i am sorry, may be i am not a very good or a perfect person or personality
but i am trying to be good =)
no harsh ........

There are too much thing to say yet i dont know what to tell
seriously, this few days, my mind keep turning up and down about all this
and i dont know what should i say
hehe......................................................
Well

may b next post?

=)

Saturday 16 October 2010

天使

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昨天下午,妹问我人不认识rebekah....
说她离开了。。。。我去看了看,原来是她
看到她的照片后,起先,觉得。。。。现在人去世的新闻越来越多
尤其是,身边的事。因为,她已经是第3个,我听到说离开世上的同学!
还很年轻,我想应该还有很多遗憾,真的真的~
而且,我们好久好久没有联络了~

看到好多好多人在放她的新闻,
都在哀悼她的离开,看到她许许多多的照片,
不禁,让我感到心酸起来
还记得,她和我同年,
算起来,那已经是6年前的事了。
我们是在女少年军里认识的,
时隔多年,想必她已经忘记了我~但是,我记得她

她离开后,唯一唯一浮现在我脑海里,最最清楚的
是她的笑容,她的大方和活泼!
看得出来,她的功课很好,是个好学生
因为,我个性内向,安静,都不大说话
她总是主动来和我说话,问我要不要帮忙
她脸上总是挂着很灿烂的笑容,
尖尖的脸蛋,弯弯的眼睛,整齐的牙齿
就像天使般的笑容

她很友善,很活泼,很漂亮
希望她一路走好!
在天堂,做一个快乐的天使~




呼吸

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寂寞寂寞就好,
别来打乱我的生活,然后又让寂寞回来
人,本来就是寂寞的~
好不容易学会了有你的生活
有你的注意,你的信息

第一次和你聊天,很讨厌
但,你总会先让我注意到你,然后和你聊天
渐渐地,你开始独自和我聊天
我们聊得很愉快,很开心
好希望,时间,时间,可以过得慢一点

话,越来越投机
我好像很懂你,就像你还没说出来,我就猜到你的想法
慢慢的,你说你对我有感觉,
你慢慢的开始喜欢上我,
而我也深深的被你吸引着,
虽然知道前面到道路扭曲,很难走,但是我相信,只要有你在,我不怕
因为,你会给我希望,你会在我无助时,让我牵着
想象,总是美好的~

开始不耐烦我的罗嗦
开始不联络,也开始了小小的争执
我不懂,我们到底怎么了,是你变了吗
还是我要求得太多?
唯一的唯一,在我心里改变的时,喜欢你的程度有曾无减
为什么?你开始觉得不对的时候,你开始要放手的时候,不先说一声?
我问,为什么你这么狠心?你却说,你的心是铁做的,什么都伤不了

你说的,你做的,不管大大小小,我都看在眼里,放在心里
你给的伤,怎么抹都抹不掉~
为你付出的,你说:你愿意为我而死吗?
你凭什么以这句话的答案,来鉴定我们的将来?
你凭什么以这句话的答案,来判我的死刑?
难道,说出这句话以前,你没想过你的自私吗?

你不声不响的放开手
我抓不到任何可以依靠的东西
双手抓着已经破碎不堪的玻璃碎
感觉快吸不到空气了,很努力的大口大口的吸着空气
一串串的珍珠跌得满地都是
是灰色,黑色,白色,我以分不清楚

或许,你也在害怕,害怕被伤害
选择被遗忘,还是放下了?
我不清楚
只是,那一幕幕是那么那么的清楚,在我脑海里庞璇
就如同昨天才刚发生的一样~
结论是没有结论
对你也没了想法
只是,那画面,画面,清晰得可怕



Wednesday 13 October 2010

❤❤ 感觉~

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今天有点闷,因为下午没去上课。。。。睡到11点多才甘愿起身!
所以,没去上课~
然后一个人走路去town,因为不想一直坐下去,要去走走~
然后买一点东西,结果叻,买了很多东西!好贵哦~~~~~~~~~~~~~
不过也好啦。。。有走动走动,可是肚子还是一样的大
哈哈哈。。。。我会努力减肥的,虽然总是明天的明天

今天,他对我说
他喜欢我。。。炸到
我觉得他根本就不懂什么是喜欢一个人
很想问,你如果喜欢我,为什么都不找我!
可是呢,我有什么资格这样说?
还是算了。。。把话又吞回肚子里好了
然后,他又跑来说,我喜欢你。。。每天都会想到你
妈的,都不知道你是想我照片,还是想我
okay,算了。。。。不想打破现在的关系,所以什么都不想说,也不想问

郁闷哦。。。心里就这样闷闷的
不知道该怎么做
然后eve找我了,本来还在想她的说
然后来我家print了一些东西就去开会了
我还是喜欢evelyn 和 shirly!
喜欢喜欢喜欢她们。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
刚刚和shirly去吃了晚餐
说了好多我的委屈,我都没哭出来也~
好棒哦!因为都过去了,所以。。。不值得为了这样的人哭
我只希望,主可以听到我的祷告
希望她有所领悟和改变
就算不是为了我,为了她自己,她的将来
真的,希望她可以知道自己错在哪里!

有时,一个人的时候,真的会乱乱想哦~
所以,希望,你们要常常联络我,关心我
因为,我讨厌寂寞
呵呵~~~~·

我想要有自己新的开始
希望可以加油加油
努力读书。。。。然后不要让爸爸妈妈再次失望
一定要顺利读完和毕业~
满足爸妈的期望

感谢主,给我这么好的家庭
爱我的爸妈
疼我的大妹
成熟的小妹
很会礼让的弟弟

他们都是神赐给我的,一辈子都是我最最亲爱的!

Monday 11 October 2010

Thanks God

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Thanks God, who never forsake me like my family, who always listening to my pray, and show how great he is and how amazing he is for me!
I really love him so much, may be some of them don't understand and thinking that i am crazy!
but i don't care~ cause only those who can understand me who can share!
He really does listen to my pray!
Thanks Lord, i appreciate much!
I am a sinner, yet he love me so much, yet he give us his only son Jesus, yet he die for us on the cross!!!

He teach me to forgive, i will forgive~
but i have tried my best to bear with you, but you have go through the barrier!
i am sorry, cause i just can't stand when you hurt my families!
You have no right to do so! what if i do the same thing to you and your family?
Have you ever realise all this and repent? I know you never,
Cause you always think that you have nothing wrong! You are always the right one and the best one! and now i have enough with all this

You, yourself who want me to give up all this!
Lord, i only can come to u! i want to hand all this to you!
And i just realised that, i had never pray for her before about this personality and attitude! Lord, thank you again for let me know that, what's wrong with me!
Everytime, i ask God to help me, to bear with her, be patient with her, but i never pray to change her! And Lord, i will keep praying for her!

Thanks Lord, who give me a good housemates!
Everytime, she remind me about you Lord.
She let me know how to draw nearer to you Lord!
i feel so glad to have her to keep remind me about you Lord
And Lord you gave me a very strong message that to guide me.
I feel really really happy....
Stay faith to you !

Thanks for everything..........
Keep my faith
Keep my strength
Keep patient and forgivness
I want to hand all my burden to you now Lord...
Thanks

Love always ^^

Tuesday 5 October 2010

面具

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啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊。。。。。。。。。今天本来很开心的说
但是,看到些东西心情都没有去!算了~~~~~
不想破坏本小姐的心情!
其实哦,我觉得我在别人面前都是带着假面具
因为啊,虽然我很讨厌一个人,我还是用笑脸来面对他
不想拆掉我的假面具,因为我不想别人难堪
如果叫我帮忙,我也会笑笑说,好啊~然后心里默默地骂他
所以,不要和我太好,因为我很坏

我只在我好朋友面前,有真的笑容,真的哭脸
哎。。。。。。。。
有时觉得好累,可是又不能改变
今天菊花朵朵开。。。妈的
不懂吃到什么东西,一只老赛
结果菊花喷火了
痛死我了~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

我现在超喜欢我的生活的
因为我的housemates都对我很好
每次请我吃chicken wings,
你看,我是不是很好满足叻?
然后printer有问题啊,也会有人帮你弄
果然,还是有个男的比较好~
而且也不会和你计较那么多。。。呵呵

女生也是很好哦。。。变成倾诉的对象
不过我都会听他和我说,看我是不是很乖~
然后一起分享我们最最崇拜的上帝
如何的amazing~~~~~
我很喜欢啊

在学校也是很开心
认识了很多朋友。。。
我班上有4个中国人,他们都跟我很要好
有一个很可爱~哈哈哈
然后今天也和一个local student说话了,
她说如果要帮忙都可以问她
哇。。。让我感动半天!呵呵

所以,去上课都好开心啊~~~
回家也很开心
嘻嘻。。。。。。。。。
希望一直一直要这样下去!
加油啊~