Sunday 27 February 2011

懦弱的我

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我承认我是个很懦弱的人!
所以,我一直希望有个很强悍的另一半可以鼓励我,保护我~
但是,他总是还没出现,我逼不得已
要学着坚强!

一路上的跌跌撞撞
我真的受伤了。。。。
身上的伤口还未愈合,新的伤口却不断的出现
我告诉我自己,要忍耐,为自己涂着药,忍着痛
不愿让别人看见我的懦弱
因为,我要坚强的自己,开心的自己
不想让别人为我忧虑,为我担心
我可以好好的~

我害怕的不是我的失败
而是父母的期望
我不害怕自己跌多少次,我都会站起来
而害怕的是父母不在给我机会
我不害怕自己一个人去承受这些压力
而害怕的是父母担心和忧虑着
我不害怕自己留多少眼泪,都可以擦干
而害怕的是父母的眼泪

我会再站起来的
因为我不会被打败
因为,神应许的事才会发生
是要我学习,让我得益的

所以,就让我再懦弱一次吧~

Thursday 24 February 2011

updated ^^

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so long didn't update my blog due to the mess of my life,
yeah~~~ actually i was very busy with my life
But still most of the time are spending on PPS
you can just imaging how time flies when u spending on PPS
and when u can't stop urself from chasing the episodes one by one
Oh my God.......................

Seriously,
i am just finish my MCQ exam yesterday, when people asked: How was it?
I have no idea how to answer it, `Emmm....ok bah? i dont know`
Well, actually i just knew that i can get 10 marks which i am very sure because i know the answers
while others, i am just not sure, so i feel a bit depress at the moment,
but when i told S about that, i think i can get 10 marks...Surprisingly, she say Oh...not bad lor
at least got 10 better than nothing, wow, i think that she is very humanity today, since i knew
her for so long, she always say! Who ask u didn't study hard for it = ="

Okay, for the next stories was
actually i got too much to update!
I failed my assignment, which is two assignment that depending on 100%
when i got my assignment, i really feel so bad about myself
how can i keep on walking on failure in my life
i was so depress seriously, nobody could understand my feelings
Due to the 1st failure, 2nd failures, 3rd and more.....Whenever i think about exam
i start getting very stress, i keep dreaming about it as i had failed the exam! i am so scared
when i was in the exam hall, i can't stop myself from shivering!
Even when i start writing, my hand writing just like chicken hand!!! i can't stop shivering MAN!
Well................................... this is really a bad news for me
i started cry so hard, of course inside my heart! nobody can help me
i feel so stupid of myself, so depress, so ..............
No one can understand my feelings!

Well, i wanna stop here now
i can never finish if i continue~
i will write more in my next post =)