Moods

Hehe......I wake up at 11am today cause i slept at 1am last night!
I am trying to adjust my time to normal cause i hate to have abnormal living style
Sometimes, really can't fall sleep at night! i hate that feelings!

Today i have a cam chat with Yuan...May be some of you know who is Yuan
She is in Taiwan now~ Wooo........I am really glad to hear that! And i am sure she will enjoy
her life in there. Although will have homesick at every first week, but will be fine when you know more friends and adopt to the life there! She show me a lot interesting stuff and we have been chit-chat a lots of things! i really love it.... haha

Then after that, i chatting with ceci, but her laptop had run out of battery = ="
Don't know what happen with her, she keep tempting me with chicken butt! I hate her lolsss...
But i really miss the foods la, but wanna keep fit lar........OMG

Also, have a talk with Sharon...I hope her dreams come true, i will try my best to help you la
hahaha........ now you know how important am i liao har??? LOLSsss
I am watching a Hong Kong Drama, suddenly....the their conversation remind me something.
I really feel that my brain is thinking in too simple way. Cause i always didn't think far away
Before i never feel there is a burden to be a Christian, not until u said, that is a burden to be a Christian, i just realised...IT is!
Sometimes, i really feel confused, i don't know how to make the really well decision with the burden as a Christian. I feel really heavy inside my heart! Even breathless sometime.
I really hope i can get rid of this situation but i cant! Cause He always give me strength to live. He is my everything!

I love my life in UK. I don't know why. Just love it
May be its because of freedom and nobody knows you.

Hope you guys enjoy my blogs without pictures but only words = =" apologise about that
cause lazy to upload the pictures!
^^ Bear with me

Another side of the wall

Times past......February going to end soon. Recall what i have doing in this meaningful months for all the Chinese around the world....It's Chinese New Year, Valentines for the couples and probably birthday for Feb baby yeah........ While, for me it's nothing meaningful at all
Cause i have been sitting all day long in front of my lappy playing games, chatting, wacthing drama and so on~ And the stupid weather make me sick! Snowing suddenly and sunny again! Me and Pauline was shiver whenever we wake up in the morning.....

Nowadays, i don't feel like get out from my duvet, cause it's really cold......So i sleep a bit late this few days! haha...........i bet this gonna be my habit again = =" Please don't! I just get rid of my bad habit before, and it's come again!

Oh yah.........Gonna have exam soon, so i can go back home! This is the only reason which motivated me a loads......haha! I　am so excited go travel to PRAGUE and back home, i am planing to go travel again! hehe.......i do play a loads of online games, cause i love it, but a really bad reason i playing game is i am a bit addicted to it, but i hope i can handle it well and this is so important for business management student right? What is TIME MANAGEMENT! haha.......... should be good behaviour first then build up better habit of life style.

sometimes, games does bring a loads of emotion for me. I feel anger when some scolding me with rude words. This is what a shame, but i couldn't blame, as this is there style of behaving what can i do? I just continue to have my own lifestyle. As a Good followers of God. I think a discipline of a christian is important. Not because all Christian are perfect or Bravo but they try to be......as this is what God taught us to be. So we obey! and mostly this may lead to better situation or even successful in future. Cause i always believe, God arrange everything for me......When feel scared do pray, he will listen.

HUNGRY ~.~

gambateh~

Debenham

Oh Debenhams, i love you love you love you so badly........
Wuahaha........Finally Debenhams is opening!!! Actually its New Eldon Square.....
It's really look cool, good, huge, high class!!! Well, New Look is opening inside
I went shopping with Pauline, Our 1st destination is PRIMARK....
haha.........loyalty spender in Primark. We stay quite a long time in primark, cause there are really loads of people.Then we go into changing room to try our clothes.
Although the clothes is a bit costsy but......we really love it!
OOoooh...........we bought a bags,clothes,some accessories ~

Then we having our lunch @ Palace.....oh no......how enjoy are we
The foods is really incredible.....love it love it
we had seafood kuey tiao, carrot kueh, sio bi and liu sha bao
we are sooooooooooooo full but we are fancy of liu sha bao, its really taste like paradise
haha..........so we going to take second order for it!

After that, we went to Wing Hong but too bad that i have no cash with me and need to spend up to 10 pounds can only use my debit card. well........we saw robert, haha~ he is working inside, then we went to New look in Debenhams. It's cool. we saw loads of heels and sandals that we looking for! Due to the price we just have a window shopping = =" but i will be back for it! No worries... haha~ Finally, we take a free photo at New Look. OOOoo....its free, everyone can take one! haha~ Last, went home @_@ happy, enjoy, love

Love love love.................................................
i love it so much! muaks muaks muaks
oh yah, i am starting my diet plan now. hee hee, wish me luck!

Time to bed now......Night!

Outing for Avatar 3D

It's time for me to bed actually, but want to have a quick bloggy!
heehee.......Today i am excited! having dinner with P at China Town, then we went to The Gate for Avatar 3D....Well, i line is sucks now, i don't know what happen with it! Anyways, as long as i still can write whatever i want to! haha.......I have watched Avatar 2D at first, but i am fancy of 3D as what my friend told me i should, must, need, to watch 3D as well, however, its really disappointed me! I am wearing the bloody glasses which make me feel really uncomfortable and the smells in cinema is like GOsH........make my nose blocked! And i need to bear with the smells for 3 hours!!! OMG......now i feel my nose pain as i got allergic of my nose = =" PLUS the uncomfortable glasses.......Sigh! I just want to say ARGHHHHH!!!

S reach home already, but i didn't chat with her, seems like she is busy with her plan! hehe.......I wanna get ready for the Friday celebration in CF as well...I need to start my plan now, but not just sitting there and doing nothing! My motivation coming.....oh yeah! but not in one goal, slowly and slowly, i will make everything DONE! lols~ Time getting nearer, its Summer......I hope i can start my diet plan now~ PLEASE pray for me! lols.....
Give me strength~ hihi

Finally, wanna put on my sleeping mask and have a good nite sleep now!
Wanna prepared the food for friday....... =.= tata~ nite nite~ muaksss

Want to drop somethings

If you notice, i have change my bloggy add to another name.....
Cause i just want to have some changes but not the same one always and always！
I keep on remember it's Monday already, cause everyone was at home yesterday so, i tot its Sunday. By the way......I have been watching Korean Drama whole day long. Its just so nice!!!

For true, i just go S and P blog then come to mine. I started guessing P's secret again, as what had written in her blogs. I bet it's about house or something or may b i am wrong. Anyways, forget about it. I was thinking, there are always difficulties living with peoples. Even those who are christian, they still have this problems. Doesn't mean Christian is perfect as Jesus or God cause we are human. However,we are human not an excuses !!! Cause as i said, want to live like Jesus, living out the spirit of him!

I am really not a perfect person. I love in cooking foods, playing online games, watching drama, nothing more than that. My brain is kind of mess now. I got a weird feelings. I know everything will change! It's really gonna be true. I can't make it stay, cause times moving, things changed. I feel worry about it, but i know after that, when i look back it just all about thinking too much! I feel horrible when stay with her alone. I feel like started the conversation but ur expression always make me mute myself. So i rather keep silent and hide myself inside my room. My bad, i don't know how to start a conversation with others, this is really bad. I feel so worry, when there is only me and you. I don't know how to face it, cause seems like we had bee keep quiet for quite a long time.

I hope God listen my pray as well, i hope he can arrange a good house for me!
Hope that he can give me strength to go through all the challenge.

My Birthday~

Aha.....My birthday, what a interesting topic right??? hee hee~ It's my 22 Birthday, seems like nothing special for me =x unless my dreams come true! I know it's hard.......but i will wait! It's has been so long i didn't thinking out of my mind, i didn't talk properly with someone deep into heart, cause i am just like block with the world outside. I know i shouldn't be like that, but it's hard to control sometime.

It's time for me to tidy up myself and preparing for the war! THE WAR is STARTED !!! lolls............as you know, the exam is drawing nearer, the feeling is killing me deeply. I hope i can get rid of this feelings, due to the unsuccessful last year, i feel really no confidence of myself. Here is my experience, first, i feel just so so go into the exam hall and sit for the exam is not a big deal, i can just simply answer the question with my answers, books, notes which i had prepared for the exam as it is a opened book exam and i got 40% JUST 40% chance then i can pass it, its easy right? yet i can find the answer from my books,notes or some general knowledge for business. Unfortunately, the result is pulling me down, i got fail for only got 20%, oh my....half of the chance. May be i can say i just go for the exam like betting??? Well.......However, forget about the first time, when i am back to hometown, i got the second chance to sit for my resit exam again!

Hurrayyy.......there is a second chance for me, i should handle it well and pass it! I must, i told myself with some unsure feeling from the bottom of my heart. Everyday, family asked, hows ur preparation for ur exam? whats ur percentages of passing ur exam? `No Worries! I am sure i will pass it! `I replied. Cause i think i got a tutor,a very comforting study place, a happy environment, a confidence build me up during i prepared for my exam! I just realised, i have learn nothing and don't know anything for the first time exam... I started to figure out myself, started to work it on the computer myself, i try hard to find out the answer without anyone helping! then the teacher said, she don't know all about my module, i didn't say it clearly! What the heck ~ the last week u told me like this? how i gonna find a new teacher for myself? so i gonna work it myself, luckily my dearest friend cc give me a hand at the hardest time. I am full of confidence although i feel embarrassing of failed ....I want to pass it to prove that i can make it for my family, and its an open booked exam, i am sure i can do it! Plus i have learn a loads when i try it myself, i understand how to do it, its just a piece of cake! Well, i am overflow confidence of myself i guess, the result is depress me again!!!

AGAIN!!! AGAIN!!! When i heard my result, i stunk, i feel like cried out of my heart, i feel like shouting like hell, i feel like closed myself into darkest place which i can't even see my fingers and cried why this is so unfair to me, why everyone pass but me not! Why i know how to answer it from the paper but i don't know how to answer in the exam hall!!! LOADs of why popping out from my mind..... I am walking home like zombie, i feel my soul is floating out from my body, i feel my brain keep turning 360` none stop........thinking what i am going to do next! what's the consequence when i do it, what should i say to not disappointing my parents? What i am gonna take next???? ...........I am kind of lost in somewhere. Fortunately, i think of God, i ask him why do let me fail again this time? immediately, i feel its like something happened, he is telling me everyone got difficulties in life, life isn't that smooth, and this is the challenge, God arrange this to me. He wants me to learn......I learn! i know there is some kind of mission that God want me to do....i am a bit afraid of the coming exam....Really! i hope my preparation is enough for me to face the exam! i am so nervous, i scared to know the result...Sigh

Well, it's really a long stories...I am talking about my birthday actually = =""" Hmmm......
Come back to my birthday, cause i know every year someone will celebrating birthday for me.I appreciated it a loads... Also, i know there will be a cake, definatel， a dinner of course, may be some presents? and its the end of my birthday! Sometime, i can understand why Shirly is afraid that her birthday is coming, and she asked everyone don't to celebrate for her~ haha........It's feel like after the big day past, its a empty shelf back to normal life, nothing special is adding into life but only ages is increasing. Saying that, you must face the fact, you are one year older than before!!! hahahaha...... and last, what i want to say is, have read Sharon's blogs, which is my beloved sister, although everyone don't believe we born from a same parents! OKAyyy??? She is my LOVES sister forever... Ur prayed which you added for me seems like all ur wished but not me = =" This is what you always expect me to have, although it's true for me... hahaha~ Now , i wanna make my own~ which is,

1, I hope grow better in faith to God, continued serving him as my only God.
2, All of us past our exams and get into the higher level of education! (see, you guys are in my wishes) i gonna lost one wish...... haha
3, We all have good health and families......
4, I want to continue transformed into a better christian or human being... hehe
5, i know moving out staying alone is a fact, i had accept it, and i want to increase my confidence level, independence level, pretty level, slimmer level, knowledge level and more~

I want to study not because of study! i want to study because i love to......I want to build up stronger aspiration, so my dreams may come true!

Again, January

How many January do i have already? 22's Jan !!! LoL........
Since i been born, this is my twelve January. It's 2010 already~ Time flies right? I told before......haha~ Well, as what oldies always said, i ate salt more than the rice you ate! This sentence is just so meaningful to me, don't you think so?

In this time, i learn a loads. How to bear with the situation, how to grow mature, how to tolerance, how to face the challenge, how to take risk in life....... As everyone grow in a certain level of age, our mind, thinking changed as well, this is just so true for me, cause i had experience it. I think i am growing in difference ways. As i further my study in UK, i learn a loads.

I admitted i am a soft hearted person. I always don't let go...I always got my own rules for myself even for others. I think there is no one allowed to break my rules which had been set up by me! However, this is so not true. Before, my mind just can't accept that! Cause i think this is just my rules, but once u grow, once, u accept, things just go different! Like, i always said, everyone got difference mind set, thinking, that's why when we look at some same problems but we got difference result of it. I choose to stay in Newcastle, cause i love this place, this is the reason that i just found last few days, although i had been staying here for about 3 years. I missed those good times when all of my friends was here. Now i can feel the feelings of one of my friend which from China, she told me before, friendship is just so realistic in here. We are friends now, but after u graduated, everyone fly back to have their own life. And they never contact with each other after that. What if the person who is more than a friend to u??? Like, families, sisters ? I feel so upset when i am thinking to break away with each others.

No matter what, i am continued to stay in Newcastle, cause i love here, love the lives here.
I had been struggle with my life last few days, i feel so lonely as there is nobody i can shared my feelings, may be i do shared, but i think not enough! haha.........Well, finally i got my brain turn around! Cause whoever, i shared, i got the same answer, same respond from them! so, i accepted! Sometimes, i just need to learn how to let go........u will feel relax after u let it go, although life is hard, but we still need to live happily~

Well, i have make up my mind, the conclusion always in my heart. have nothing to write now, tired! lols~
Missed my friends so much!

Lastly, i am looking for a flatmate or a room........any suggestion???
Hehe~