Motivation....

Basically, today i have attend my first lecture, my seminar
They all give me really good impression and of cos motivates me a lot as well
1stly, the first lecture is Mike, he is got a mature look, not very tall, but he giving a really good lecture today! Surprisingly, he make me awake in the one hour of lecture in the lecture hall....
I would just say Wuhoooooo
He was funny, and lots of facial expression, giving example of life which make us
pay attention on him, he is genius huh!!!

Alright, come to the next, which is another marketing tutor,
he was quite young i guess? his way is like utilise some fouls languages as in, not a good one as i though? haha
Well, he was like using the realilife as example as well to drag into his presentation! This is a good way to explain to the students ya? Especially the Interntional students, but he speak a bit fast, luckily i still manage to catch up! Phew......

then, i have done a creepy thing today, i was waiting for my seminar and i tot it was in room 418, then i go into the room and sit down, the tutor seperate us in 3 groups, i never realised i was in the wrong room until i got the registeer list from the tutor! I can't found my name, then i look at the Module was MN0388, i was stunned, i was like WTF, i am in the wrong classroom, then i ask the students in my group, is this the module of MN0388? They aisd YES,

I was like CRAP, i said, OOps, i think i was in the wrong class...then i double check on my timetable, i need to be in class 218 the class 418 which is tomorrow noon....i tidy up my things and rushing out from the classroom, and of cos i do apology to the tutor before i ran! hahaha...Always be a polite one hah!!! and of cos i was late for my seminar class which i need to be in 10 mins ago!

I knock on the door, and apology for being late, i said i was in the wrong class just now, and my tutor said doesnt matter, just come in! AAAAAwww....He is so lovely didn't HE? Then, i hand me a copy of module handbook, I was like wow..... i havent been meeting any tutor who printed the handbook and clipped it for us! i feel really warm and sweet inside my heart! =P

Anyways, he really give me a fabulous impression after tat all...
Moreover, he was my tutor in my 2nd year module as well, during my presentation of my marketing module, he was my tutor...aaaaaa,....so lovely!!!
Love him so much~ lolsss

Well, going to my next lecture now =P

Motivation motivation!!! keep it going
See yah !!!

挣扎

回到英国了，感谢主，一切顺利
顺利的进入了第3年～
这条路，我真的走得很辛苦
因为太多的失败，我走过了
经历了失败，我才尝到了成功的滋味
我只能说，这一路走来，真的不容易
也许，别人觉得在外面那么好命，很爽
但是，他们都不知道你的苦
有苦，也只能自己吞

现在，我很想吃东西，因为天气冷，再加上压力
回到这里时，我的胃口变得好大～感觉，怎么都吃不饱
郁闷～
真的很郁闷，每当我有论文要写的时候，我真的苦恼，很郁闷
我很多事情好做，但是，我就是不知道要从哪里开始
每次我都是这样！
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
我也不知我自己在说啥了！
唉～

希望我可overcome all this!!!
惨咯，华语退步了～

友情这种东西

随着时间的流逝，年龄的增长
友情对我而言变得好廉价
以前，友情总是我的第一，甚至胜过家人
但是，我现在真的看得透了
有时候，觉得友情和爱情没什么两样
我不懂得你的利用，你的目的
我只有用我的真心，不断地向你付出
但是，你显然不以为意，觉得我所做的是理所当然
对不起，我现在才发现，原来我什么都不是

悲哀~
常常，我的真心都被人利用
我只有不断地学习着保护自己
真的只有保护自己
因为我学着不再对人付出真心
学着不再把真心交给别人~

泪流够了
是时候懂得为别人擦掉眼泪
只能不断的让自己变强

在人生的道路上，我们都在学习
所以~加油吧。。。。。。。。。。。。

My gosh, it's nearly August~

I am currently staying @ kuching,
As i wanna finish my assignment in Kuching, as i can get more resource at the Uni here
but unfortunately i failed T.T
Cause i have spending too much time on playing around, as there are too much thing
attract me playing around!
While i m staying in BAU, and finally i had finish one of my assignment
BIG CLAPSSS~~~

Yesterday, before i slept, i was praying to God that, i hope
my families members can follow the footstep of yours!
Yet God really have his own arrangement!
He give me the chance to let me share my experience with my cousin
i feel really great with that!
When i started talking about GOD, it's just never ends
and just so amazing of him!!!

I am really gald that, i know HIM! and i called him as my only GOD
He is so awesome that i couldn't explain with my tongue!
I know he will lead me........
Even when i fall, he encourage me to stand, he talk to me
understand my heart that nobody can! He is just so lovely and amazing
i really love him so much! there have no one who can compare u~

Lord, i have lots failure in my life
but u always the one who take me over all this difficulties
also the supporting of my families
now, i only wish that, i could have time to talk with my mum
to build better relationship with her!
then i will pass my assignment and go into my final years then graduated
successfully !!! If everyone can do it, wHY i cant?
i must do it!

i dont wanna make my life regret!
Thank u LORD~

I feel very sien today~

No idea what is the matter with me, i don't feel excited at all
may be i was staying alone at home for quite a long time, i refused to spend more
money for shopping, eating outside and blabla~~~

However, i ain't feel any good after doing all this, i was thinking to shopping again!
Phewww...........
I feel furious with one of my friend, as we plan to give her a surprised birthday on the coming Saturday, but she suddenly said she wont be going to Sunderland, because of her EX bf don't allowed her to go out! i was like What the fuck with u!!!
Both of you are not related anymore, he is just a past tense !!! AN EX!!! what is the matter with you???

I feel really bad, once u make this decision, u hurt everyone around u! Me, Micheal, Geojo, ur family? What are u supposed us to do? u said u cant let go, so u wanna listen to him, what about others who love u and care about u? Don't you think you are selfish enough to do all this? I am sorry, i really can't accept nor agree what are you doing right now! I feel so speechless of you!

Everyone got their different mind and thinking, i don't want your apology! If you happy i support, but u ain't happy at all! Is this the life you want? staying alone! Tidy up the mess which he purposely to do it! what is the matter with him? What the fuck is him? He think he owned this house? i paid for it as well! i got the right to do so whatever i want to! why do i need to be quite and like a nobody when i am in the house! What is the problem with you????

Yet, i really can't stand anymore! Micheal was keep calling and talking about all this! He know everything yet he never want to voice up, as he got the patient and love! but doesn't mean everyone got the same patient towards you! Sigh

Just get lost~ i never ever want to care anymore, i dont wanna be busy body to care so much! Sigh! HATE myself......................

When i need someone to talk, everyone was dead! i feel so pissed off
Where is everyone when i need to talk?

心

昨天我真的很郁闷
今天和阿燕在skype里聊天～好喜欢和她聊天，喜欢她笑着！
我不介意在你面前办小丑，因为我喜欢看到你笑，不喜欢你冷酷的看着我
所以，我总喜欢逗你笑

晚上，和erica and geojo 出去吃，然后再Quay side走走
但是，天太冷了，所以我们喝了杯红酒
昨天晚上M和我说了些，我不该听到的东西～虽然我心里有数，但是，我还是选择沉默
毕竟，这是很私人的事，有时候，我们没有他想象的那么好
我不知道在她心里，我有着什么样的位置
但是，我相信，是由某个位置，只是不知道是什么样的位置

我们都一样会为了另一半付出所以，我们的看法也相近
所以我害怕再一次受伤，我真的要很认真，很认真想清楚才接受
所以，如果只是想和我玩玩的，拜托离我远一点

两个人在一起，就是要接受对方的缺点
懂得体谅～虽然女生喜欢无理取闹，但是男生应该要懂得体贴

很多时候，我朋友说我，我都是想象出来的～
其实，当我遇到了，我就不怕了
我承认，我不是个好女生，所以，不要靠近我
我的心很冷，甚至我都觉得自己冷血！我脾气暴躁，喜欢乱发脾气
我很自私，什么都想到自己
我需要一个可以很包容我的男朋友

我容易忽冷忽热
就因为我太自私！

其实，当你说，我不在是你的最爱时，我有点失落
我害怕你在等我，因为你知道我们是不可能的
但是，我又害怕失去你，会没有人疼我
对不起，也谢谢你～
虽然爱你，但是。。。。。。。。
这是个没有结局的爱

对于你，我不想再把你当好朋友
也许就像你说的，我们是两个世界的人
说来说去，是你自私，不愿意为了我而改变，
因为你根本就不爱我！
我只想活得更好！我要让你知道，失去我，是你的损失

因为痛过，才知道爱

我今天心情很不好！

今天心情超级差～
因为，昨天朋友叫我去另一个朋友家吃饭，结果我就去了
因为心想，呆在家里也没事做
结果，到凌晨3点多才回家！一直和他们聊天，其实我很爱睡了
但是，看到我朋友躺在那男人大腿上睡觉！他们到底什么关系啊？
算了！结果我一直等到3点她才甘愿起身，我爱睡死了。。。。。。
其实，认识我的人知道，通常我都不出声的，除非我真的忍无可忍，我才会出声！
结果，就这样拖着，拖着，拖着～

回到家后，看到煤气炉上都是碎碎的拉面，一定又是家里那个男的弄的咯
结果，我朋友就说，你不要去收，不管他，我明天会收
我心想，他是神经有问题哦，每次都搞这些幼稚的事，
然后我朋友就向我拿7镑，说还刚刚吃的食物，哇老！！！我真的炸到
我本来不想去的，因为想这个月花太多了，要呆在家里，然后他说一人煮一样的嘛，为什么我还要还钱？
唉。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。马的！

今天早上起来，我更郁闷！！！马的，那个男的竟然把我的衣服丢在袋子里！
因为我的衣服放在洗衣机里洗，我还没拿去晒的！！！结果他既然把我衣服放在袋子里
我气爆了！！！平常，他衣服放几天，我都没把他拿出来！！！
我都问过他们，他们才把衣服拿出来，而且再我赶着洗我的衣服的时候，要不然我也会等他们拿出来后
我才拿去洗！！！结果叻。。。。。。。。。。。。。啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
然后，今天去游泳，游到很不开心，我朋友一直在那里抱怨说很多巴基斯坦人！！！他们很肮脏
哇老，你来游泳哦，你还想怎样？又不是你一个人的！！！算了啦，我忍！！！

结果，我就郁闷了一整天，一直到现在！
然后我刚刚在看Facebook,看到那个 MADAM TAN 尽然把我delete掉！ FUCK lor
那个ah mu是在我店里做工的，然后她既然和我妈妈吵架
马的，还敢把我删除！！！我都没删除她！！！都50多岁的人了！还那么幼稚
是怎样？马的一整天都遇到这些幼稚的人！！！
我快风了！很想快点回家～～～～～～～～～～～～～～
不想看到这些人！！！死远一点啦～～～～～～～～～～～

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我心情超级郁闷的说～～～～～～～～～～～～
真的好久没有这种感觉了！！！郁闷啦
我讨厌男生哭啦，好像很懦弱！！！
马的，马的，马的，马的，马的

我很闲！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！