I feel very sien today~

No idea what is the matter with me, i don't feel excited at all
may be i was staying alone at home for quite a long time, i refused to spend more
money for shopping, eating outside and blabla~~~

However, i ain't feel any good after doing all this, i was thinking to shopping again!
Phewww...........
I feel furious with one of my friend, as we plan to give her a surprised birthday on the coming Saturday, but she suddenly said she wont be going to Sunderland, because of her EX bf don't allowed her to go out! i was like What the fuck with u!!!
Both of you are not related anymore, he is just a past tense !!! AN EX!!! what is the matter with you???

I feel really bad, once u make this decision, u hurt everyone around u! Me, Micheal, Geojo, ur family? What are u supposed us to do? u said u cant let go, so u wanna listen to him, what about others who love u and care about u? Don't you think you are selfish enough to do all this? I am sorry, i really can't accept nor agree what are you doing right now! I feel so speechless of you!

Everyone got their different mind and thinking, i don't want your apology! If you happy i support, but u ain't happy at all! Is this the life you want? staying alone! Tidy up the mess which he purposely to do it! what is the matter with him? What the fuck is him? He think he owned this house? i paid for it as well! i got the right to do so whatever i want to! why do i need to be quite and like a nobody when i am in the house! What is the problem with you????

Yet, i really can't stand anymore! Micheal was keep calling and talking about all this! He know everything yet he never want to voice up, as he got the patient and love! but doesn't mean everyone got the same patient towards you! Sigh

Just get lost~ i never ever want to care anymore, i dont wanna be busy body to care so much! Sigh! HATE myself......................

When i need someone to talk, everyone was dead! i feel so pissed off
Where is everyone when i need to talk?