Back to Usual....

Finally......I had meet him ^^ Ah hong!!! lols~

We had spend together for 2 days, it was nice.
I took this when we are in the taxi.... hehe
This is nice right? with this T-shirt!!!
Anyways...seems like he is happy to meet me
Erm...i do feel nice to see him again

And then, we go for shopping at Sungai Wang and Time Square.... i had bought a lots of thing!!! haha
And then having KFC with our fingers = ="

I love KL ^^
But my time got a bit rush if not, i willing to spend more time
to stay in KL....
but i can't
May be when i am back i will choose to stay there
lols...


Took this before leave KL airport!!!
Finally i back to sibu lols.... I had miss my flight on
Thursday, actually be back on that day
But stay one more night at KL at Sofia's house
Then back again to sibu on the next day *Friday* 30.08.08
hehe~
And luckily Thanks God i have get my unconditional letter
and done my Visa, everything was going Nicely
hahaha^^




Okay....Today is 31 of August.... Its Hari Mederka!!!
But today also my parents open ceremony day for the office....
So we are really busy busy busy for today!!! A lot of relatives come to our house
I feel very good to stay with them.... Chit chating a lots of things
lol ^^

I love my family my relatives and so on =)
I am great to have a family like this
I appreciate for everything i have ^^




During the dinner...haha















This is the warehouse ^^ Me and my cousin *Kathy* and me and Sharon ^^

Rainy Day again.....

I love rainy day..... I like to see rain falling down, the environment was romance and u feel cool Heemmpp.... just like it ^^ But Sibu going to flood if continue rain like this~ lols Suddenly, i miss u~ i don't know why sometimes i miss u a lots But i know u will never want to care about me anymore nevermind =) just let it be what u want it to be... may be this is the better way for u? Okays.... Ah hong, the guy have lost for thousand century!!! He find me suddenly...I really shock and surprised~ I am just thinking of where is him and he is appear Sigh, but not at the time my heart is mess, i am sorry for what i have done i lost myself again i don't know what i want! I worry.... I really do love you before, but it already past i know i am boring...cc i miss u a lots when will you be back from Taiwan oMg~ This is me when i am doing the mask for my blackhead and Alvin was playing the computer game at the back on the bed lols ^^

Everythings had just past....

Today is 22 of August already.....
i had stop my blogs since very very long time ago~
During this period, there are lots of things happen on me.
I can only try hard to drop somethings that i still remember.......
No more than that~

Actually, i try to stop my blogs
but at the end, i start it again cause i think useless to do this because of somethings
i am not that weak okay??? SAN!!! Come back........
You are stronger as what you think you are!!!
Hey,i'm back ^^ I learn to be stronger that i ever be
i use to sad alone without anyone, cause i know
only myself can help me to not be sad, and only myself to make myself happy =)
Sam...he is back for one week, but i am disappointed .... we end up as a stranger at the end
but its already past, i have nothing more to say about that
That's his freedom, i will just keep him deep in my heart, let tears bring its away
Just really want to say Thank You to him ^^
Learn to be stronger now, learn to be happy now...

And now......sansan is back! Friends said sansan is happy go luck girl ^^
peter daddy said i still have a lots of choice....
Yah, i know!!! I don't want to be sad again!
Thanks you my friends, cc,fish,peter daddy,steven and nelson they always care about me
always give me advised...... Thanks God to make them come to me
I apperciated.....

I only pray for God now, that my visa my air tickets i hope everything will going smoothly
i hope everything will be fine!!! I started my Uni Life...... Yeahoo ^^
I gonna meets a lot of friends in Uni? Yah! I Do...
I gonna miss my parents and my friends in Sibu again...
But It just a temporary Leave....I will be back After 3 years!
I will be back ^^
I want to enjoy my life....

回家

期待再期待，终于这个时候到了～
我们终于可以回家了，坐了那么久的飞机，只有一句话想说，就是好累～
看到家人真的很高兴很开心。。。
已经到家两天了，但还是觉得很累，很累
不知道为什么，也许是时间的相差，总觉得很爱睡
终于到家了，还是家里好～
天气好热好热，
到家了，还没好好的休息
天天都要出去，好累哦～

我哭了。。。。

今天，和平常一样~
起身后，就和cc 聊天。。。。
说重点，现在的心情不是很好。。。觉得很沉重，我不知道是不是我错了。
刚刚，吃好饭后，我急着跑上来想要和cc聊天，怕她等我等太久。
因为这样，还被我妹妹骂了一顿~心想，算了。。。。
就上来和cc抱怨了一堆，cc同时也和我抱怨了些事情。所以她心情很不好~
我知道她心情很不好，我可以感觉得到~但，我不知道是不是为了她和我所抱怨的事情。
说真的，我很想把你留下来再继续陪我聊天。但我知道，你心情很槽，就让你去睡觉了。
当你和我说的话，我在想你们是好朋友，不应该是这样的。
像我就不会和我的好朋友这样。

我不知道你是怎么想的。。。。我很想帮你，但我不知道我该说些什么来安慰你。
我心疼了，他不该这样~好几次，我按下了他，接着又把他关了。
直到，你去睡了，我就按下了他。
在没按下他之前，我已经有了心理准备，我知道他还会用言语来伤我。
因为我知道他，就像之前，他问我。。。*好*朋友，这个字的时候。
我犹豫了，我以什么资格，什么立场，什么身份来说他？
但，我管不了那么多了~我说出来了。。。
果然，不出我所料~第一句就被他刺中了心坎里~
我要他顾虑下别人的感受~
他问我，关我什么事？
顿时，我的眼泪就不受控制的流下来。
我哭了，我不知道我为什么要哭，又让我记起心痛的感觉。。。
但我不想看到cc心情低落。我也会跟着她低落。
我。。。无话可说。。。我认错，我道歉~
我开始觉得他很幼稚。
但，我不会恨他，我会继续原谅他的无知。
也许，是我太鸡婆，要去自找骂~ 是我太看得起我自己了。
我只是想说出来而已，仅此而已。


懂得尊重你的朋友。。。


我来更新了。。。因为刚刚心情比较平静了，就再找他~
其实，他刚刚和我说的不关我的事，意思应该是说，不用我烦恼他们的事吧？
我不确定，但，我希望是这样~让我觉得怪不好意思地
眼泪也白流了~然后，还误会人家。。。。真想挖个地洞了！！！
然后，又说了几下，我想我帮不上什么忙~也不知道该怎么做。
我就不再说了, 然后他说，不是说我很幼稚么？干嘛还和我说话？ 哈哈哈哈~
很可爱莫。。。害我忍不住，想摸摸他的头~是我太大惊小怪了。
还有件事，就是kk 咯。。。我决定原谅他了~本来我是很生他气的，
但看在他是第一个跑来关心我的人，我就不和他计较了。。。

p.S = cc, 你说过，我对你还有些些的保留，是因为我的之前的关系~~~
但是，我想说的是，或许会有一点点，但是，几乎是裸露的~ 你明白我的意思吗？
可你却，放了很多事在你心里。也许，我劝不了你~但我相信，*他的出发点是好意的。
他也是为了你好~我是指另一方面。男生嘛，毕竟没女生来的细心，都会忽略很多事。
所以，就像你说的，他是 a part of your life and i am sure he is the same.....

Metro Center ^^

Today go shopping again lar......
With Annie, Esther, Sharon, Pauline and Jasmine~~~
Actually Eijing join us today, but he go to find Johnny
and come together with Johnny, so we didn't meet up
We continued to our shopping hours looo
Girls really like to shopping what, even nothing to buy but still like to shop shop shop!!!
After that i am sure go home with big bag and small bag la...
And What the Hell...Today really spend a lots...
I go to the bank want to close my current account,
and yet they say me over drawn!!! walao eh~
charged me six pound daily......really suck and yet i just received the letter today said that have to charge for the over draft and my account already over drawn.....
I have no choice la..need to pay sixty pound for that....
Really wanna point middle fingers for them!!!!
Kaos....i can buy so many things mor, sixty pound eh~
Rm240+++...memang celaka one!

Sien si wor mor....Then of course continued shopping la....Don't care liao
also need to pay what!!! After meet up with Esther we wait the no.100 bus at the bus stop lor
and then ler....of course la, we taking picture again in the bus....hiak hiak
This is me with Sharon~

Can only see half Pauline, Jasmine and Sharon.... lols

This is me alone lor....hihi

Everyone is tired liao....

We are in Internationale while Sharon is paying her staff!!!

After shopping and for sure we have our big meal looo~

Today dinner is Pizza Hut....haha

I haven't eat Pizza Hut for nearly one year liao...

Cause always no go in Pizza Hut~

And yah...Finally i have pizza as our dinner luuuu ^^ so happy lar....hehehe~ Eat until i wan vomit la...so so so full mor

look delicious right? garlic cheese bread and potato wedges and the middle one is chicken wing with some tomato source....

Annie and Esther can't wait to have a bit on them already~~haha

See see...our large Pizza with Hawaii Favour~ and also add with cheesy bites...yum yum ~

haha....

This is my drinks....Apple with blackcurrant juice....look beautiful right? like wine~~lols

actually it is not!

Finished....So full~~~~

Annie and Esther is leaving....They going to the Just ten

While 3 of us, continued shopping la~

Wah, my leg really pain la!!!!!

Reach home at last...really tired eh~

want to sleep soon....i miss cc ler....

tomorrow find her chat! kekeke

See diok bui? I miss u lar....lols

感慨~

今天，没有很早起来。。。
因为又去睡回头觉了，等我起来时，cc 还没回来~~~
真是的，害我闷死去！！！

然后就去找东西吃咯。。。。下午了
没东西吃，唉~~~都不知道日子是怎么过的
有一餐每一餐的， 呵呵~
结果我回来时，msn有很多人找我。。。怎么这个时候那么多人找我啊
真是奇怪~~~

我觉得我自己不够坚强，
每当碰到爱情，就会变得不知所措。。。。变得不能开口
有时，我很讨厌自己的懦弱。还记得，和他在一起时，我常常都想到他，眼泪就不听使唤的一直流出来。。。。是因为心真的痛了~~~
每天，就为了一点小事也好，就可以把我伤的伤痕累累。
我不知道我是怎么了，也许这就是主给我的教训。如果我可以选择，我真的很想不理他。
但是，我做不到。。。看到他，箭头又忍不住地按下他，就算只有一句问候也好~
也许，是我心太寂寞了，太容易喜欢上任何人~
许多的无奈加上无奈。。。我知道我还很在意，但我每次都否认。
让我自己觉得这是我的错觉，不是这样的！你是坚强的！你不可以再这样依赖着他！
而且，他已经不再是你的谁，就算是，你也得认清自己的地位，自己的位置~
我选择了去忘记以前的事。。。。我希望，就如peter daddy说的，时间会冲淡一切~

我想要天天开心的我。。。。没有烦恼的我
在别人面前，总是很开心的我~
这就是我的自信所在。

珊珊的世界里，从来都没有烦恼^^
就算有太多的不开心，但开心永远都比不开心要来得多
不开心将永远的被遗忘~

突然，我想起了我的婆婆和公公。。。眼泪又会不停的流
我很爱哭啦，说到我很爱哭，让我想起曾经有个人，看着我哭，对我说
你哭什么？哭能够解决问题吗？我的心真的好痛好痛，痛得以失去了知觉~
我以我的婆婆和公公为荣~ 虽然他们都去世了，但我会永远记住他们的。。。
我很想哭，因为，我总觉得我不够孝顺，我做得太少了

记得当时，我很不喜欢我的婆婆，对公公也没什么感情。。。
因为公公是个不喜欢说话的人，常常都不苟言笑，所以我们都很怕他。
但是，他因为有糖尿病，身体开始不好，到最后变成老人痴呆~~~
我们都和他们一起住~ 而我婆婆，我不喜欢她是因为，她很吝啬。。。
而且她比较疼小儿子，我爸爸是第2个~很不公平~
她很喜欢说我，而我常常应嘴。。。所以我很讨厌她
直到她得了胃癌，她常进出医院，因为她是在kuching接受治疗
所以很常不在家。。。也很少机会看到她
就在她回来sibu而进医院时，有时，就会轮到我到医院照顾她~
当时，我会和她聊天，然后陪她。
现在，他们都去世了，我真的很想再有多一点点地时间陪他们
时间不能回去了。。。我觉得我婆婆真的很坚强，也许在她内心里
是多么的害怕，多么的牵挂，但是我们从来都不知道
她还是那么倘然的面对病魔，与病魔作战。。。

现在想起来，我觉得我做得太少了
每当想起他们眼泪也会跟着留下来~
也许是我太爱哭了，每当想起他们离开的那一刻
我眼泪就会不听使唤的拼命流~

希望他们回到主的怀抱里
可以过得更好，不要再感到痛~
原主一直看顾着他们！
感谢主。。。