For Sharon

S........Have been read through your blogs

and i am understand ur situation

Also, i know how u feel~

Seriously, i have no right and i can't predict what will happen in future

That's why i don't give you any `strong` support or agree with you in this relation

As we know how he is like!

U got exactly the same feeling like i do

i was so wrong that time, but i hope u won't fall into like what i did

May be it's hard to let you say No or avoiding thinking of him, miss him and blabla

And what he have done was so touch your heart

I didn't say he is no good or both of you can't get together

but when you asking the answer from others,

please open ur ears, ur eyes !

Listen and See

Like sometime, when we ask something from God

He did reply, but we refused to listen

and we always missed the answer and think that, he never give us any asnwer~

I just hope you don't spend too much money on calling, it just useless

this is what i really mad at u, but i don't want to say anything

5 pounds, 10 pounds is still allowable for you to just a quick talk

but whenever you keep on top up, but yet u never realised about it

else, may b u can say...u don't buy a clothes or dont eat to top up

and have u ever think it just the same~

What i mean is the value of spending on it!

Think wisely, if you think it is really worth to do so

and don say love blind, its an excuses

i am here to light up ur candle, and show you the way,

it's just not blind! hope you can see ur way soon~

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I have no idea what Title should i called it~

Let it just be a none-title Title

Have been very enjoying this few days

Assignment havent really release yet, so i have plenty of time actually

Besides, lecture and seminar........the other time of my life was surfing on net

It's sounds mad, i have spend like average 12 or more hours per day on my laptop

hahaha

Winter is coming soon, this really block me for going out

i hate it's so cold outside =)

I rather just stay at home!

Nothing much to update about me

I just hope there is some changes in my life,

but i have no motivation to do it all~

sigh, i have no idea what am i going to do next

Feel like do some shooting of the view which i don't really notice in Newcastle

Miss yan so much, still remember how sweet she is

Today, i am quite down actually, and i told her i am not in mood

and i told her what i really think about,

actually, you think you are the one who can talk to me

but what i found was, the limitation of our topics

Funny............ yet i am less interest in it

i am sorry, may be i am not a very good or a perfect person or personality

but i am trying to be good =)

no harsh ........

There are too much thing to say yet i dont know what to tell

seriously, this few days, my mind keep turning up and down about all this

and i dont know what should i say

hehe......................................................

Well

may b next post?

=)

天使

昨天下午，妹问我人不认识rebekah....

说她离开了。。。。我去看了看，原来是她

看到她的照片后，起先，觉得。。。。现在人去世的新闻越来越多

尤其是，身边的事。因为，她已经是第3个，我听到说离开世上的同学！

还很年轻，我想应该还有很多遗憾，真的真的~

而且，我们好久好久没有联络了~

看到好多好多人在放她的新闻，

都在哀悼她的离开，看到她许许多多的照片，

不禁，让我感到心酸起来

还记得，她和我同年，

算起来，那已经是6年前的事了。

我们是在女少年军里认识的，

时隔多年，想必她已经忘记了我~但是，我记得她

她离开后，唯一唯一浮现在我脑海里，最最清楚的

是她的笑容，她的大方和活泼！

看得出来，她的功课很好，是个好学生

因为，我个性内向，安静，都不大说话

她总是主动来和我说话，问我要不要帮忙

她脸上总是挂着很灿烂的笑容，

尖尖的脸蛋，弯弯的眼睛，整齐的牙齿

就像天使般的笑容

她很友善，很活泼，很漂亮

希望她一路走好！

在天堂，做一个快乐的天使~

呼吸

寂寞寂寞就好，

别来打乱我的生活，然后又让寂寞回来

人，本来就是寂寞的~

好不容易学会了有你的生活

有你的注意，你的信息

第一次和你聊天，很讨厌

但，你总会先让我注意到你，然后和你聊天

渐渐地，你开始独自和我聊天

我们聊得很愉快，很开心

好希望，时间，时间，可以过得慢一点

话，越来越投机

我好像很懂你，就像你还没说出来，我就猜到你的想法

慢慢的，你说你对我有感觉，

你慢慢的开始喜欢上我，

而我也深深的被你吸引着，

虽然知道前面到道路扭曲，很难走，但是我相信，只要有你在，我不怕

因为，你会给我希望，你会在我无助时，让我牵着

想象，总是美好的~

开始不耐烦我的罗嗦

开始不联络，也开始了小小的争执

我不懂，我们到底怎么了，是你变了吗

还是我要求得太多？

唯一的唯一，在我心里改变的时，喜欢你的程度有曾无减

为什么？你开始觉得不对的时候，你开始要放手的时候，不先说一声？

我问，为什么你这么狠心？你却说，你的心是铁做的，什么都伤不了

你说的，你做的，不管大大小小，我都看在眼里，放在心里

你给的伤，怎么抹都抹不掉~

为你付出的，你说：你愿意为我而死吗？

你凭什么以这句话的答案，来鉴定我们的将来？

你凭什么以这句话的答案，来判我的死刑？

难道，说出这句话以前，你没想过你的自私吗？

你不声不响的放开手

我抓不到任何可以依靠的东西

双手抓着已经破碎不堪的玻璃碎

感觉快吸不到空气了，很努力的大口大口的吸着空气

一串串的珍珠跌得满地都是

是灰色，黑色，白色，我以分不清楚

或许，你也在害怕，害怕被伤害

选择被遗忘，还是放下了？

我不清楚

只是，那一幕幕是那么那么的清楚，在我脑海里庞璇

就如同昨天才刚发生的一样~

结论是没有结论

对你也没了想法

只是，那画面，画面，清晰得可怕

❤❤ 感觉~

今天有点闷，因为下午没去上课。。。。睡到11点多才甘愿起身！

所以，没去上课~

然后一个人走路去town,因为不想一直坐下去，要去走走~

然后买一点东西，结果叻，买了很多东西！好贵哦~~~~~~~~~~~~~

不过也好啦。。。有走动走动，可是肚子还是一样的大

哈哈哈。。。。我会努力减肥的，虽然总是明天的明天

今天，他对我说

他喜欢我。。。炸到

我觉得他根本就不懂什么是喜欢一个人

很想问，你如果喜欢我，为什么都不找我！

可是呢，我有什么资格这样说？

还是算了。。。把话又吞回肚子里好了

然后，他又跑来说，我喜欢你。。。每天都会想到你

妈的，都不知道你是想我照片，还是想我

okay，算了。。。。不想打破现在的关系，所以什么都不想说，也不想问

郁闷哦。。。心里就这样闷闷的

不知道该怎么做

然后eve找我了，本来还在想她的说

然后来我家print了一些东西就去开会了

我还是喜欢evelyn 和 shirly!

喜欢喜欢喜欢她们。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

刚刚和shirly去吃了晚餐

说了好多我的委屈，我都没哭出来也~

好棒哦！因为都过去了，所以。。。不值得为了这样的人哭

我只希望，主可以听到我的祷告

希望她有所领悟和改变

就算不是为了我，为了她自己，她的将来

真的，希望她可以知道自己错在哪里！

有时，一个人的时候，真的会乱乱想哦~

所以，希望，你们要常常联络我，关心我

因为，我讨厌寂寞

呵呵~~~~·

我想要有自己新的开始

希望可以加油加油

努力读书。。。。然后不要让爸爸妈妈再次失望

一定要顺利读完和毕业~

满足爸妈的期望

感谢主，给我这么好的家庭

爱我的爸妈

疼我的大妹

成熟的小妹

很会礼让的弟弟

他们都是神赐给我的，一辈子都是我最最亲爱的！

Thanks God

Thanks God, who never forsake me like my family, who always listening to my pray, and show how great he is and how amazing he is for me!

I really love him so much, may be some of them don't understand and thinking that i am crazy!

but i don't care~ cause only those who can understand me who can share!

He really does listen to my pray!

Thanks Lord, i appreciate much!

I am a sinner, yet he love me so much, yet he give us his only son Jesus, yet he die for us on the cross!!!

He teach me to forgive, i will forgive~

but i have tried my best to bear with you, but you have go through the barrier!

i am sorry, cause i just can't stand when you hurt my families!

You have no right to do so! what if i do the same thing to you and your family?

Have you ever realise all this and repent? I know you never,

Cause you always think that you have nothing wrong! You are always the right one and the best one! and now i have enough with all this

You, yourself who want me to give up all this!

Lord, i only can come to u! i want to hand all this to you!

And i just realised that, i had never pray for her before about this personality and attitude! Lord, thank you again for let me know that, what's wrong with me!

Everytime, i ask God to help me, to bear with her, be patient with her, but i never pray to change her! And Lord, i will keep praying for her!

Thanks Lord, who give me a good housemates!

Everytime, she remind me about you Lord.

She let me know how to draw nearer to you Lord!

i feel so glad to have her to keep remind me about you Lord

And Lord you gave me a very strong message that to guide me.

I feel really really happy....

Stay faith to you !

Thanks for everything..........

Keep my faith

Keep my strength

Keep patient and forgivness

I want to hand all my burden to you now Lord...

Thanks

Love always ^^

面具

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊。。。。。。。。。今天本来很开心的说

但是，看到些东西心情都没有去！算了~~~~~

不想破坏本小姐的心情！

其实哦，我觉得我在别人面前都是带着假面具

因为啊，虽然我很讨厌一个人，我还是用笑脸来面对他

不想拆掉我的假面具，因为我不想别人难堪

如果叫我帮忙，我也会笑笑说，好啊~然后心里默默地骂他

所以，不要和我太好，因为我很坏

我只在我好朋友面前，有真的笑容，真的哭脸

哎。。。。。。。。

有时觉得好累，可是又不能改变

今天菊花朵朵开。。。妈的

不懂吃到什么东西，一只老赛

结果菊花喷火了

痛死我了~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

我现在超喜欢我的生活的

因为我的housemates都对我很好

每次请我吃chicken wings,

你看，我是不是很好满足叻？

然后printer有问题啊，也会有人帮你弄

果然，还是有个男的比较好~

而且也不会和你计较那么多。。。呵呵

女生也是很好哦。。。变成倾诉的对象

不过我都会听他和我说，看我是不是很乖~

然后一起分享我们最最崇拜的上帝

如何的amazing~~~~~

我很喜欢啊

在学校也是很开心

认识了很多朋友。。。

我班上有4个中国人，他们都跟我很要好

有一个很可爱~哈哈哈

然后今天也和一个local student说话了，

她说如果要帮忙都可以问她

哇。。。让我感动半天！呵呵

所以，去上课都好开心啊~~~

回家也很开心

嘻嘻。。。。。。。。。

希望一直一直要这样下去！

加油啊~